A Response ♥

So after so long - nothing has been making me cry. No thought. No memory. No whatsoever regarding my past relationship has made me cry. I don't know for how long - all I know is that I've been really doing great.

Now this aint an "I'm still not over you" post. Excuse me.

It's rather a response to a friend's tweet to me which was a post from Thought Catalog.

LINK TO THE POST

Right when I saw the title, I knew it was supposed to somewhat make me understand what I just went through and this article could probably speak for my past that somehow just managed to resolve itself just because you can choose to let it be. Because I know that if I dwell on my past - I know that as long as I don't accept things and just leave them as they are - moving on can take forever and I'll always just have questions which will always be unanswered. So I've decided to move on. And just let things be. Let time heal wounds - and look forward to much brighter days.

But okay.

So I read the entire article.

Upon reading the first part ... I knew how HE felt. The guy who was left behind.

For a really long time too even after we broke up - I still strongly believed that it couldn't possibly because of another person. There couldn't possibly be a third party. I believed I knew him too well for that to be the reason.

Me and HE felt the same thing. It's just that I probably had it worse - because of how abrupt mine ended. Not how fast and unexpected - but how it really did. But let's not discuss that. Let's keep that personal.

And yes, I did lose him when he had to find himself. (Have you finally found yourself though? In the course of choosing to live your life without me - have you truly found yourself? If not, I hope your journey be at its best. No pun intended. Pinkyswear.)

And then ... I read what's supposed to be his part. His side.

I couldn't help but cry. I was supposed to sleep again after breakfast. But when I read this - I just knew this was worth responding to and yes - has to be in my blog.

I found it unfair. And I - a little bit - honestly got hurt. Why? Because I did not fucking understand why I felt the exact same thing too - with HER.

I lost myself too. But I used to think that "Nah, it's okay. Maybe this is a new me. Or or if I'm not happy with the person I've become - maybe breaking up is not the option. Maybe finding myself - in a new light & a new perspective never meant I'd have to let him go. Maybe I could change into a better person - and have him be with me through my journey. Maybe I can keep him. Maybe it's okay to lose myself when conditioning my mind that when I'm with him - I'd rather be nowhere else but there. Maybe ... just maybe - I could make things right - and we could make things right - without ever having to let go of each other."  Etcefuckingtera.

He was this and he was that.

And I don't blame him - just because I took part in it because I allowed him to treat me that way.

For so many times I tried to get out. For so many times I believed that that was what's best for us. But just as SHE said - I know he wouldn't let me go if he knew the reason. Which was true. I'd like to believe that we had this honest and open relationship. So yeah - I did express my feelings regarding the issue. How there's no more growth. And that maybe we need some time apart. Etcetera. Etcetera. But no. He never let me go - when I wanted to be let loose. So okay - we ended up staying together - through whatsofuckingever. To infinity and beyond we said.

But maybe the last paragraph's that thing I hope he felt. It's okay - okay? To not ever really fix things anymore. Things are okay now. Really. But I do hope he felt and knew that I deserved more. That I deserved an explanation. It's okay for me to no longer hear that. It's okay for me to just let things be. I no longer need to hear the explanation - really. I just hope so bad that he knew that I deserved one. Do you get me?

I still have my high hopes for him. That he'd have the best in life. And find himself. Find whatever it is he's looking for - really. I do hope he finds the girl too who's indeed gonna change his life. This one - he knows. This one - I've told him MANY, MANY, MANY times before. That I just don't think I'm the girl who's for him. I strongly believe that there must be someone else he'd really really really change for. And I remember telling him too that I hope when he finds whoever it is he thinks is "the one" for him - I super hope she finds him her "the one" too.

To whoever girl though that may be with him right now or in the future, I'd like to tell you this. Please love him - and just be patient with him. I know he's hard to be with at times - but really. He just needs tons of understanding. And if he loves you - if he says he loves you and you're sure he sounds so sincere about it ... if you know that he doesn't even need to say it - and you just feel that he DOES love you - that even just by the way he looks at you already makes you feel like you're the only girl in his world - please just be patient with him. He loves you. And you know you love him back. Because when you've already doubted the possibility of you two being together and if you two would work out yet you're still with him - maybe you've got it bad too. Just stay with him. Eventually he'll come to his senses - and I'm hoping that this time - he wont let you go. ;)

And as for me - I don't think I'm lost. I know myself. But I am in search for something more. I'm everyday on this journey to a better self. :) I know who I am right now. And I'm currently really doing great. :)

To brighter days. 

hnng~

Ciao xxxxxxxxx

TEEHEE♥

City of Dreams ♥

Sometimes we continue certain stories in our lives because we know deep inside that if this chapter turns out well, it'll be a good story to tell.

I think the reason why I'm attracted or end up with deranged men (or should I say boys) is because I grew up with worse case scenarios and I still find the unbearable - bearable.

Whenever I listen to music, I sometimes have this mini-movie or trailer that plays in my mind and then a whole story's just made up.

Still thinking about joining Cinemalaya next year. Hopefully, my friends are still up for it.

My room is still a complete mess. I've been too caught up with Community lately and it's really addicting, you know? Something that makes me laugh really hard wherein I just can't NOT laugh even though everyone's already asleep and rooms in our house aren't soundproof.

I've decided to have this daily dose of things that make me laugh. Maybe watch Vines everyday, or Community everyday, or or what I used to do - really patiently look for funny YouTube videos. Nahhhh I'm not sad or anything - I just don't really regularly have a good laugh anymore (during the day, and on weekdays - since I'm all by myself - working on my own solo shits in life). I don't got co-workers or classmates or friends I get to joke around with or share good stories with - so yeah. I need this daily dose of laughter to create this balanced life shit what am I talking about HAHAHAHAHAHA. But you get me? I don't wanna grow up and eventually not find anything funny anymore :( I'm really a shallow person when it comes to the little things and it's pretty easy to please me and make me laugh (or maybe not) but really - I don't want to lose that side of me wherein everything and anything can be funny at one point or another.

Butter Coconut Biscuits from Nissin are my current snack addiction. You guys should try it.

City of Dreams is on repeat. Still gathering thoughts about it.

Finally got to download a decent movie burner!!! HOORAY. (So happy coz my fake Toast or rather my free download of it needs a fcking password I can't seem to provide)

Okay I think that's enough thought sharing this morning. Time for Community now. YAY :)

Ciao x

Give it a rest.

Here's a repost from my blog back in 2010. This was dated April 23, 2010. You see, it's really good that I blog a lot kahit before pa. So now, I don't need to repeat the things I've said! GREAAAAT. So hear me up, and read this :) Thanks! x

Not because I care means I still have feelings for the certain person. I no longer do. That, I'm sure of. Really.

Okay. So I got to see some posts on her wall and other stuff. And I dint feel any rush in my heart or in my mind. Nothing at all. I sometimes think some people just assume they're still not over someone just because they tend to think about them. But that's not really a matter of how often you still think about someone...but how you still feel about them.

I'd often tell people that love isn't a matter of feeling and shit. But isn't it that, when we're in love - we just know it? It's like, no words could explain what we feel - we just know it ;)

Same with falling out of it - I think. You might not understand it, but I know and feel it for sure that I no longer feel anything for him.

Honestly, it's quite irritating at times when people keep on telling you that it's okay or it's gonna be okay when ----- I AM OKAY. I mean, I really am. Why wont you guys believe me? Not everything is about him. If I react, they'd think I'm not okay. If I'd NOT react, still the same interpretation! I don't know WHAT they want. :| :( It's quite saddening as well .. to not have anyone really understand the fact that you don't need pity because WHAT THE FUCK - I'm fine. If EVER I am not, you telling me that it's gonna be okay or comforting me DOESN'T HELP at all. Just saying.

This is probably a plead. To everyone. To just believe me. Believe me when I tell you IT'S NOTHING already. I've MOVED ON. So please, just give it break. I know I loved him a LOT and a LOT of you guys were witnesses to that too. But please, I REALLY DON'T LOVE HIM ANYMORE. Maybe - JUST MAYBE as someone I loved so much and has become a really huge part of my life - BUT REAAAAALLY. No. Not ANYMORE. Not the way I used to and not as much as before. Practically ZERO. No more rush and no more butterflies. Thoughts, YES still. But that doesn't really matter. Okay? Please. Please LANG.

Thanks.

Here's the link to that post back in 2010.

Okay. So here's a little additional info regarding the issue.

My best friend tells me it's "impossible" that it's that fast - that I'd be able to move on.

Is it, really? I mean. I've been through this before - how long should moving on take ba? And you actually can move on much faster when you realize stuff a whole lot more. Like, you're able to understand things na and just stop questioning them. And it's really gonna make the "moving on" phase faster if I'll be honest with myself. With anyone moving on, really. And you know what makes moving on faster too? It's when you know you've already cried hard enough. It's when you know you've been through enough heartaches and pain with and because of a person. It's when you know you can't really feel anything for that person anymore. I'm no longer angry. Holding grudges would just make ME miserable while he'll be all happy and shit. So why should I stay mad? Diba? I'm okay, really.

Do I still love him? Yes, I still do. But again, it's only as a friend. As someone I have loved so much. But I no longer feel anything romantic for him. Okay? It's like all my feelings for him right now, may it be feelings of concern or whatever - they're all just because for me - I was with this person for more than two years. I loved this person and I believe that I was a part of his life that much - involved that much - to actually not find it that easy or fast to just not give a damn about him anymore. I'm concerned with his well being, I'm concerned with his studies, with his family and probably everything else about him. But it's not to the point that I'd still want to meddle with any part of his life anymore. He can do whatever he wants. It's no longer my concern if he messes up. I'm concerned - but not anymore in any position to be THAT affected with anything that happens. Am I getting myself through to you guys?

Yeah, I miss him. From time to time, that is. But not always, not anymore. And it's not the type of missing someone wherein you want that someone back. Because I am beyond sure that the person I miss is much farther from me than he is physically. It's not just about North to South anymore. But it's rather not knowing who this person is anymore. So whoever it is I miss, is honestly not gonna be back anytime soon - or anytime ever. He's a completely different person now, and I guess in some ways, so am I. Whoever it is I miss, I miss HIM who used to be with ME. He's changed a lot, and that guy aint MY John anymore. That guy? That guy aint the John I used to know. So let's all give ourselves a break and let us all move on together.

What else. Why can I say I've moved on. Hmmmmm.

I cleaned up my room a week ago. Threw out some trash and stuff I no longer need. I threw away the wrapper of my first ever bouquet of flowers and thought to myself I don't need it anymore to remind me who I got my first bouquet of flowers from since it was my first. 

I threw away receipts. I threw them away since I know I've got loads of photos from certain places we've been to or we've dined at. Keeping these would really just mean that I'm keeping a whole lot of trash.

I kept movie tickets. And I kept his love letters. And I guess for those - I'll just end up throwing away when I'm already married to someone else. It's not that I'm hoping that John and I would get back together someday - which is I honestly am not - but I should also be honest with you guys that I am open to the POSSIBILITY of such. I MAY not want him back today. I MAY feel disgusted with the thought of being with him anytime soon - but that's just me CURRENTLY. And through time, a whole lot is gonna change. He's gonna be a different person and so will I. And who knows, the world may end up still making us compatible with each other. And maybe by then - the timing's right enough for us to last "to infinity and beyond". But for now, as of the moment - let's all just get over it. I know I am.

I'm stoked for the future. I'm excited to meet whoever it is that's really meant to be with me. But I'm not in any rush at all. I'd love to enjoy this time I have right now as a single person. I'll find him and he'll find me - in God's perfect timing. And really - I'd prefer to blog about this one some other time.

And again, regarding John, please. I'm okay, guys. REALLY. I don't know how else I could stress this out - but yeaaaah. Ok? So please.

And YES, let's all be happy for him/them. :) If though you honestly think I'm not okay, offer me a prayer. HAHAHAHA. But I really am fine. I've never faked anything on this blog so ... really. Let's all move on.

Okay. I guess that's enough.

Ciao x

Doubting Forever ♥

Even when you shouldn't. Even when at all cases right now - it somewhat seems to you as though nothing else can ever last. And yes, even when you've just gotten through a breakup or are still in the process of getting over it.

I have decided to be mature enough to handle whatever situation it is I'm going through right now. And this is apparently on the way that I know of. But of course, I'm open to suggestions. Hihi.

I don't usually do this. When I first had to go through a breakup back in 2009, I totally shut myself out of social media in terms of not really blogging at all or haven't really blogged anything nice those days. When I re-read my blog posts before - I was probably the most pathetic girl there was. I pitied myself and found it stupid that I allowed myself to feel that miserable and question my self-worth just because a guy left me.

My previous blog post is probably the most negative blog post you'll ever get to read from this entire blog. That time I wrote that, I was as pissed off with myself as hell. I could just simply delete it or just keep it as a draft - but I want to keep my blog as is. I want people to know that what I share with you guys - I'm unpretentious. I'm not a completely open book though. All I'm saying is, that the things I share are things I hope could also help others out if ever they're probably going through the same shit or so. I don't know. But it's also of course my own record of thoughts I'm glad enough to share with the public.

How am I doing? I'm doing great. It's quite funny how it really is possible that feelings change in an instant. I should keep that as a reminder. Because mine did too. I mean, it's really hilarious how what happened recently was my very own "emotional calamity" HAHAHA. It was my very own "Bagyong Maring". So many feelings were "nasalanta" / washed away - in a somewhat drastic manner.

The "romantic feelings" I had left for this guy I loved so dearly was completely washed off the moment I saw his new relationship status on Facebook with his new girlfriend. At first it seemed like an awful joke and for days I found it nothing but "nakakagago / nakakaloko / nakakatawa / (sorry pero) - nakakas___". What I couldn't move on from was the thought of if he was even serious with all this. But after sometime - I believe he is.

Etcetera. Etcetera.

I don't really know if people are gonna find me the bitter ex girlfriend - but please. You guys don't even know the whole story so keep your judgements to yourselves.

(Gosh so many thoughts are cut off for the sake of respect for the ex UGHHHH)

I often wonder why my "amazing/close to perfect relationships" end abruptly. I really don't know why! Everytime I try to analyze the situation and think about it closely like where'd I ever gone wrong and all - I don't know. At least I know that in whatever relationships it is I've had in the past - I gave it my all. And that I'm proud of. I still don't know what my most recent ex boyfriend would feel years from now, but I'm hoping that he'll just grow up and eventually grow some balls and man up and admit where he's ever gone wrong. The problem with guys usually (and of course some girls too) is that they can't seem to accept the fact that they too have faults. Blah blah blah. Oh nevermind. I just really hope that in due time, he too can be able to completely move on. If he's moved on already, I'm happy for him. If he's happy, I'm happy for him. All I can do now is pray for the best. :) I hope that in time, when he gets to think of me, I hope that he'll look back with no regrets of ever having me in his life. Because I'm pretty sure I have no regrets having him in mine. Of course we've had ups and downs a lot and the ending is quite ... I don't know but um ... I'm sure of it that I'm okay already. :)

Coz it's really sweet how my ex before this ex is okay with me and did eventually admit that he just couldn't make us work (with the distance and all). It's a cute thought how he told his mom wait - - -

So when his mom and I got to catch up (which was probably around the end of March) - she told me stories and all (grabe I say "and all" a lot of times HAHAHA) and how she still talks about me when she talks to her son. She even told him "Si Sarah ang saya saya na / Si Sarah may boyfriend na / Feeling ko sila na talaga" which is really sweet! Coming from the mom of my ex. And then her son says jokingly "Malay mo kami parin sa huli".

Now I'm telling you guys this because it makes me feel good that we're no longer bitter about each other or whatever that to even kid about the possibility of us in the future is okay. Gets? But really - I've got no more feelings for either exes. I just hope you guys get the point. HAHAHAHA.

So with regards to this blog, I've decided to keep all of my posts and not hide any of them. I know that for the past two years - I've got lovey dovey posts about my ex and the reason why I'm not deleting any is because - that's already done and over. I don't need to erase them. It's a part of my past that I or anyone who'll be with me in the future should learn to accept.

Photos on Facebook and all - I really have no plans on deleting our album or my profile pictures with him. I just don't see the point in doing so. If he asks me to take them down - maybe I could remove them. But I just don't see the essence of doing it. I mean I'm still proud of what we HAD and how we WERE before. And yeah. That's just about it. If I ever meet someone new or so and that new guy wants me to take them down - then that's no problem with me either. Anyhoo. Point is, I'm keeping everything.

Kasi back then - I changed my blog and deleted some pathetic entries etc etc. HAHAHA. But I'm okay now. With or without these public things with him or about him - I'll still feel the same.

I'm really just looking forward to the future. ♥ TEEHEE. And that's gonna be another blog post. HIHIHI.

Gotta go get ready for my movie date with Jeanellie.♥

Till my next post.

Ciao x 

PS, here's the link to my old blog!! HAHAHAHA. << this blog btw was previously "rangersoupy" hahahaha. but therunawaypotato's final na ♥

Wake Up, Little Princess♥

August sixteen twenty thirteen. Let's remember this day because it's ought to be memorable. I get up around eight twenty and just think about my life and some parts of it that are a bit dumb and seriously just unacceptably stupid and now - I am blogging.

I'm blogging these feelings/thoughts because I want this to be a huge slap on my face if ever my feelings shift back again - to being the dumb and stupid and just plain wtf me.

When a relationship is over - it's over. Get over it as soon as possible. I think that's how the game should be played. The one who moves on the faster - is probably the one who wins. But it's not really a game I know. But you get the point. Because you know what, if you're so slow at getting back on your feet and moving on ahead of the other party - all that's gonna be left of you is a sappy piece of shit looking so pathetic and just SERIOUSLY PATHETIC. Okay? So I'm telling you this, and I'm basing it on recent experience.

So you call him up and suddenly - the voice on the other line sounds completely different. But still - you don't put it down. Because you know that that was what you wanted. To hear his voice. And fuck please stop saying that "this is the last" or "last one" WTF - just get done with it! Just go and move on! No more "last" whatevers because face it - you never can tell when it is that you're finally over if you keep saying "last na talaga". Whatevs.

So yeah. You're on the phone. And then what. You say the most stupid thing ever just because that's what's bursting out of your system because that's what you've been feeling for days now. You say "I miss you" and then the asshole of a stranger on the other line says "May Milo kayo jan?" I just froze. I froze and really just realized how much of a piece of shit I was. I realized NOPE. I DON'T miss YOU. I actually just miss what "used to be" and I just really miss the "you" before "we" fucking ended.

Apparently, when the relationship is over - no more fucking three month rule. Move on - ASAP. The three month rule is used to what - give respect to the other party and courtesy to what you guys had. And that doesn't even just entail having someone new - it includes everything. Three months? Fuck that's TOO LONG. You're just gonna feel so sorry for yourself if you're still there - considering what he'll feel for every move you'd make and then he's there - not giving even the slightest damn about you or what you'd feel.

When it's over - it's over.

Stop thinking about what "was", okay? You guys are already over! And whatever it is that's been left behind - LEAVE IT THERE. And I mean EVERYTHING. Okay?

Just stop it and get over it.

And right now, I'm not even bitter. I'm just stating facts. All I actually feel right now is disgust for how I've acted and seriously regret what I did last night (I only regret what I did last night. Just that stupid phone call. But all the rest - I have no regrets.) And towards the other party - I feel nothing. It's seriously - that indifferent feeling already. It's like. Whatever he does with his life - I just don't care anymore. It'll be an "Oh okay." feeling when I hear something about him. If it's interesting or whatever - edi I'll be interested. But really. Really really. I'm just so glad I've got friends who can slap the shit out of me when things get too stupid to handle.

Anyhoo.

This day will be general clean up day for me because friends are coming over and my room is still a mess.

Kbye.

Ciao :) x

they say

it'll get easier - they say. you deserve better - they say. know your worth - they say. but i still have those days i feel worthless as shit

x

.

Mirrors' on repeat.

It's a lazy Sunday.

A cozy one.

And I should really make the best out of it.

Edit photos from last night.

Filter photos from past shoots.

Finally finish my portfolio.

Came across this quote.

"You’ve gotta decide what’s more important to you.. Keeping your pride and getting nothing— or taking a risk and maybe, maybe having everything"

And then I'm back at that point.

Where I wonder.

Why.

Why me.

What's wrong with me.

Why.

Why can't I be the one.

Why can't I ever be enough.

Why can't I be THAT risk worth taking.

Why can't I ever be WORTH the explanation.

Why can't I BE WORTH anything.

To anyone.

At all.

Why.

What's wrong with me.

.

.

.

x

Dot dot dot

I miss you.

God knows how much I wish I no longer do.

Ciao. 

When Love Knocks You Down ♥

You have really just got to get the fuck back up when it knocks you down (knocks you down). You should never ever ever let yourself stay in such a gloomy place for such a long time. For Christ's sake, it aint the end of the world so don't act like it is. I just got out of a relationship and this is a wake up call to everyone who's going through a heartbreak or a whatsoever.

It's OKAY TO CRY, okay? It's OKAY to be sad, okay? It's OKAY to be depressed. It's okay if for a few days you'll lock yourself up in your room and just sleep or watch sad films or listen to sad music or just cry the whole day - it's OKAY. But please don't stay there. Or better yet - don't stay there too long.

I know for sure that we all go through different experiences. But a breakup is a breakup. And a heartbreak is a heartbreak. But dear. Dear, you are lovely. Okay? And whatever flaws it is that you may have that could've probably been the reason why someone left you or it's really just because the person who left you has got a brain no bigger than a chicken's - please know that there WILL BE someone out there who's gonna love you - even with all your flaws.

Now I'm not encouraging you to just feel better and "know your worth". I'm gonna tell you to MOVE ON. Get up. And prove to yourself that YOU ARE worthy of love that lasts. Prove yourself that YOU ARE deserving of someone BETTER. Prove yourself that you deserve nothing but the best. Do you know how you're gonna do that? It's by making sure that YOU are the BEST VERSION of YOURSELF. Did you hear me? Do you get me? Was I clear enough?

People oftentimes complain and complain and complain. Heck - complain when you know for sure you've done nothing wrong. Complain when you know for sure when you find yourself at best and you really believe you don't deserve what it is you're receiving. That's when you complain. Complain when you've already thought things through. Complain when you know that this isn't what you even asked for from God. But hey, wait - God doesn't even give you something you can't handle. So what I'm saying is, if you're in a tough situation - it means you're put there to make you a much better person. This situation is supposed to make you stronger, wiser, and better than ever. If God gave you a person who's hard to be with, that person was given to you so you'd be taught how to be more understanding, more patient, more loving. If you were put in a situation wherein nothing else seems to go right, it just means you shouldn't easily give up because you're probably meant to at least do your best to help in making things right. Everything happens for a reason. And for all the negativity that's been raining on you lately - please do remember that you can always - ding ding ding! Excelsior. Use all those negative things - and turn them into something positive. Create something wonderful out of it. And you'll find yourself - happier. You'll find yourself in a position wherein things get easier to overcome.

And now let's go back to love and being broken.

It's okay. Don't tell me that I don't know what it is you're going through - believe me when I tell you I've been through enough heartaches myself. And this aint even just on boyfriend-girlfriend relationships. I've had heartaches from all sorts of situations. Considering I'm a very sensitive person too - I find myself easily affected by things but often enough - not everything that affects me needs to be shown that I'm actually affected. (I don't know if that part was even clear enough hahaha.)

ANYWAYS.

All I really wanted to say is. Things will get better. If you need a hug, go text or call me. I'd be glad enough to talk or meet up with you and hug you myself. It's hard. I know it's hard. I know that it's fucking hard. And there will be days that you think you've actually moved on - but you still haven't. And then you'll find yourself crying yourself to sleep again. That's okay. We've all got phases we need to go through before fully being able to "move on".

Moving on is not just a matter of moving from one place to another. It's actually more of ... finally knowing where you stand - and it's already perfectly fine with you.

Eventually, you'll find that you're completely nothing to him even with just a short span of time - and it wont hurt. I promise. The time will come that it'll just be a "meh" situation. And I think that that's when we've all "moved on".

Remember, hate isn't even the opposite of love. Indifference is. Indifference means not giving even the slightest shit. Hate means you've still got feelings for the person. But when you're already indifferent - you'll just hear his name or someone's gonna tease you or whatever and you'll completely be casual about it or maybe kid around but you'll just - eventually not feel anything more than randomly answering a random question.

So. Yeah. I think you guys get me. And I'll most probably blog another shit about moving on so. I think I should try to sleep now. Hahahaha. But I'm still wide awake. Huhu.

Ok.

Till my next love post. Hahaha

Ciao xx

Draft // May 18, 2011

Surprisingly still my same sentiments. But with the latter part - I'm still not quite sure. Hmm. Anyhoo. Maybe someday I'll decide on finishing up this one. Baka pag may conclusion na ako. Hahahaha.

I'm one of those people who when I'm sure - I'm more than a hundred percent sure. It means that I'm able to keep my word. I know how to keep promises - the same way that I know how to break em. But not just because we know how to do something, it would already imply that we actually do those - which means that I'm not fond of breaking promises much more if they are pinkyswears.

I'm a bit curious though. What if you made a promise with someone - and you both promised to keep that promise together - what if the other party starts to break it? Are you obliged to still keep your promise? Or you could break it too? I'm quite unsure .. help me out?:)

When we are happy - when we are in love - we keep on making promises. I can't tell you that we create promises without being sure about em - of course around those times and those days - you were. But not when the feelings have worn off .. Not when you guys break up .. Not when your friendship ends - no. I somewhat feel that certain promises are only kept until the relationship is still there. And when the relationship's done and over - so is one's promise.

I've made this clear for quite a lot of times already - that when it comes to relationships - I DO take them seriously. To a point that I will NOT be with a guy if I'm not definite that I can picture him in my future.

I've been with someone before - which entails that I have made promises and pinkyswears. I swore to love him till my last breath. I swore that he'd be the only man in my life. I swore that whatever happens - I'll love him with all of me - always and forever. But we broke up. He broke my heart. And after some time - I kept wondering ... "What about everything we've been through? What about all the promises we've made?" And then when you've finally moved on - you'll just realize that all those are gone - waaay gone. But I do not need to promise that I will love him till the end - because I believe that I really forever will. It's true that when we love - it never completely fades - coz love is not just but a feeling ... it's so much more. It would either just decrease or increase through time - but it wont ever totally be gone. 

Draft // May 03, 2011

Sorry but it just sounded so funny because I think I'd still respond the same. Hahahahahaha.

What if someone (STRANGER) insults you or tells you this...

1. ang arte  mo!

- san banda:)

2. mas matalino naman ako sayo.

-  edi ikaw na matalino:))

3. crush ako ng crush mo?

 - sino sa kanila?:)

4. ang  bobo mo pala sa math

  - kelangan mo idiin?

5. bilisan mo nga!

  - lintek edi mauna ka

6. ang sungit mo!

 - aww

7. gusto  mo ng away?

  - ayaw

8. takot ka ata sakin eh

 - sino ka ba

9. mas mahal niya ko!

 - sino?._.

10. ang bababa naman ng mga grades mo!

 -  di rin:)

What if sinabi ito sa'yo ng CRUSH mo?

1. crush kita.

 - HEE HEE.

2. hindi  kita mahal.

  - ako ba mahal kita?/:))

3. mahal kita.

 - di rin

4. pakopya naman ng assignment.

 - di tayo parehas ng homework.

5. crush  ko yung friend mo

  - a. sabihin ko ba?

6. pwedeng  patabi sa upuan?

 - sigi.

7. pwede mo ba akong isayaw?

 - whynat;;)

8. feeling  ko may gusto ka sakin?

 - /:) feeler:))

9. ang cute  mong mag-smile.

 - hee

10. bakit ang bait mo sakin?

  - mabait talaga ako sa lahat

Eh kapag parents mo nagsabi sa'yo  nito?

1. umuwi ka ng maaga

 - yes ma

2. magaling ka palang sumayaw.

  - di naman

3. hindi ka na  pwedeng pumasok sa klase.

 - bakit?

Eh kapag teacher mo nagsabi sa'yo nito?

1 . kailangan kong makausap ang mga magulang mo.

 - okay

2 . ang  makita kong mangopya mamatay na!

 - mean