Yan kasi.

Currently, my eyes already hurt like fuck. And - I think that my mom has just confiscated both of my phones. My Sun phone and my Globe. Great. Now that's just awesome.

I was at my friend's lolo's wake. And my two phones were on silent mode because they're both lowbatt already. So anyways, the only phone I put on buzzlightyear mode wherein it's on silent mode but it'd still vibrate - was my Sun phone. Globe kasi malapit na madeads so, yeah. It's on supersilent mode wherein I would really have no idea if someone texts of calls.

Anyways. Mama sounded serious over the phone. Telling me to get home already and that when I get home, I should put both my phones on top of their dresser. And I was like - "YOU'RE CONFISCATING MY PHONES??" Then she was like "Basta. You place both your phones on our dresser when you get home."

And I'm like - LOL. Parang, sige. Okay. Back in high school kasi it used to be a big deal whenever my phone was confiscated. It was somehow a matter of life and death for me. I even used to know where she'd keep my phone. Then, when I get home from school, I'd use it ng patago while she's not yet home then immediately put it back the way it was to where she hid it. HOHO~

Now - wala nalang sakin. Parang - okay. Edi mas di nila ko nacontact .__. :> HAHAHAHA~ oh wellll papspels. Kenot go to school without a phone. Heller~ pano kaya ako makikipagcommunicate. Pero fine.

I'm just wondering when it is she'll give em back. Anyhoohahee~ both phones are turned on and have security codes. So yeah. I just want to have messages to keep on coming. LOL.

PS, I do hope that she gives em back tomorrow and would just get mad at me instead. HEHE~

Okay. Gonna do my papers tomorrow ;) Good night, earthlings :)

On taking risks.

After listening to the song If It's Love by Train ... I realized a lot more stuff about me.

Even liking someone ... just the act of actually LIKING someone ... scares the hell out of me. And it's sad that even that shit does. I mean - what's so freaking scary about that?? WHATTT~

Then I thought .. yeah, things are taken one step at a time .. but if you'd really think about it .. liking leads to liking more. Liking more leads to falling. Falling leads to fucking falling in love. I think there's even such a thing as falling in like. And I know it sounds stupid - but hey, admit the fact that there are times you end up thinking "SHIT. I'm starting to like him/her." And fuck nooooo~ see. I'm a little paranoid bitch who's scared of having to admit that someone - the thought of certain people make her happy. What's far more scary is that when that number of people get to be overpowered by just one person. Now that's baaaaad. Reaaaaal baaaad. It perfectly shows and proves that you my love indeed like that person already. Say whatttttt~

But I doubt that I'm currently in that situation. I don't know what I feel. I just have to admit that right now - I'm so fucking scared.

:(

I'm a vulnerable little fuck. I can't like a guy seriously. Liking someone seriously means I'm already being open to chances of falling for him which cannot happen due to numerous reasons and I could state one right now - KASI.

Okay. Malabo ako kausap. Lagi naman e :(

Basta. It freaks me out. I don't like it when a guy I DON'T LIKE starts to make me happy. NOOOOO~

It's just .. so complicated. And to the level of how complicated it is - I have ended up with again - running. I swear. I've started to become so good at it. I fear that I'm gonna keep on running till there's some guy who'll run after me. Who'll notice that I'm just running coz I'm scared to death but can be tied down when rest assured that ... I can stop running. That this time .. it's okay to like him. This time, it's okay to fall. This time, it's okay to love again. But no. Me being scared scares guys off. So. Does this mean I'll be forever alone? :( </3

LOLOLOL. I don't knowwwwww~

Anyways. I have to do my paper now. And our logo. And so much more. At least right now, I'm loving what we're doing. YAY FOR STRESSFUL THINGS WE LOVE :3 But then - if doing these make me happy - where art thou stress? /:) HEE.

Okay. Just updating ; )