Coz we're cool like that ;)

The usual, I'm on Tumblr. And here's something super cute and I totally can't take my eyes off :3 HEE HEE. It reminds me of my girl friends :"> This is exaaaactly how we go gaga over guys or or even just movies or love stories. We are definitely girls. No doubt. And I think it's super cute too ;;) HAHA. 

I'm gonna keep this post super short and end it already. HEE.

I LOVE YOU, 2B1 >:D< :*

(PS, FAVORITE GIF :3)

I wanna go out on a date.

Please? Will someone take me out?

I know it sounds pathetic. But seriously. I wanna go out with someone - anyone - I think?

So my birthday's nearing and I've already got plans. Well, not really. -__-

On the day itself - it's either I go out with my sister and her husband if and only if they'll go take me to Star City (a place I've never been to, sorry) aaaand or Lazer Tag. No, I got no plans for paintballs stuff. My friends got bruises and shit and my legs are already as crazy as whatever due to my being so clumsy so yes - I have scars and basta bv - anyways.

If I don't go out with my sister and Ian (her husband) .. I was thinking .. I wanna go out by myself. My usual date with myself :) Watch a movie, eat ice cream, maybe watch How I Met Your Mother as I sit at bench and eat chocolate mint flavored ice cream then after that, hang out at Powerbooks and read books. LOL. The usual, be at the art section. Checking out huge art books. On advertising, drawing, architecture and the like. Then, maybe finish up the newest book of Diary of a Wimpy Kid. Then, have lunch at a restaurant! (That I haven't done by myself yet) Then .. maybe maybe, get myself a present :) For fun, I could have it wrapped and even write myself a message. Then I'll open it at home - maybe? LOLOLOLOL. Then then .. be home before dark ;) Have dinner with the family? Yeah. That simple. :)

Then there's this other idea - I was thinking of going out with someone. Anyone. Preferably, a guy of course. And if he's game for anything - that would be awesome! :) But I doubt I'd take him to the movies. I doubt too that I'd give him my number and my name. And lastly - I doubt that such would happen. :)) It'd take a super high and happy me to be able to do such a crazy thing - though I've always wanted to try it :3

Anywaaaays .. moving on .. I was also thinking of having the entire bus sing for me a happy birthday. Act like my family's not around and stuff. HAHA. Pero you know people - they're boring. They wouldn't sing for me.

Btw, if I haven't mentioned it yet - my family? Yeah. My mom and dad would be in Baguio. Since I was a kid, my birthdays have been celebrated at Baguio. And it was just recently that I found out that it wasn't because it was my birthday - but it was because my mom and dad had to attend to a CFC thing. HOHO~ but I'm totally fine with it. Birthdays in Baguio are - awesome. They've been cold kahit na warm dahil sa love. LOLOLOLOL. So, point is - folks aren't around. Though my two brothers are home and would be home - meh. We're tight - but not really. So ----- I mean. We're in good terms and all pero - what'll we do at home -_____- I'll just be doing the usual - this. Be on the internet ALL DAY LONG. What a boring Sunday that would be. Oh Lord. But, mama and daddy would be back by lunch so - I dunno.

This birthday - I aint even expecting for anything special to happen. I didn't even post my birthday on fb. It's cool that hundreds of people greet you - but wouldn't it be cooler if they greeted you coz they genuinely know it's your birthday? ;;) And it would just piss you off more if someone dint greet you even though your birthday's already on fb. Diba? Oh well. Still not posting it. I just wanna know who really knows my birthday and stuff. Hmm. I'm not even expecting any surprises this time around. Well to be honest .. my 18th .. was really touching. I really appreciated the effort my friends have done and all. But I don't know .. it just wasn't .. how do I explain this .. hmm.

My 18th, was lame. But I could tell you the stuff that made me happy that day :)

- even though I invited friends over, they still prepared a little something for me. Then I even had balloons. Balloons really make me happy. And they did wear orange and gray. Then .. 2 of my college friends were there too. Then .. I got to be with my friends. Oh, and tita and Kevin dropped by too which was really cool. Then .. that's all, really. And oh! I got a bouquet of flowers ;) From Nicole I guess - or was it from everyone? Hehe.

I love surprises. Which means I still do want a surprise on my birthday. But as I've said, I'm not expecting any since I've already got things planned out for my day. ; )

- I'll get myself a balloon.

- mint flavored ice cream.

- play cards.

- get myself a cupcake then get a candle too? this'll be neat. I'll get the superthin candlesticks. then put em all in one cupcake. \:D/

- OH. hear mass. lol.

- get some siomai :D

- and large fries and 6 packs of ketchup / giga fries.

That'll make my birthday :) ^above would be stuff I'd do if I'd stay at home or something. But uhh, I'm pretty sure I'll push through with the date with myself thingy. HEE.

Birthday wish? WORLD PEACE. hohohoho. But seriously .. I dunno. God knows my heart's desires. ; )

So .. till next time, earthlings :D Happy readin' :P :))

: )

Apparently .. I've got a lot more reasons to smile tonight. And tomorrow. And the next days. :) Dammit.

HEH HEH. So there's this problem. I'm pretty much particular with what I say in my blogs. Being aware and alert that I don't mention anything not everyone could find out. LOLOLOL.

SOOOO~ no matter how baaaad I wanna blog about certain things (things like these :"> ;;) =)) ) .. I should go now ; )

:) Thanks for today, God :* I <3 you forever :)

Sundays

First off, let's hope I don't cry as I write this post.

Second, I shall now begin.

Me and my sister? We're really tight. Super duper mega uber tight. We're practically like best friends. I get to tell her anything and everything. We sleep in one room and in one bed. All of us, we used to have our own beds. But me, since I was a kid, I grew up sleeping beside my parents. When I grew up and had to sadly move out of their room and into mine - I slept there for a really short time. We had two double-decks. One for my brothers and the other for me and my sister. Of course, she was older than me which meant she gets to sleep on the top bunk. Eventually, I slept beside her.

As time passed, my bunk got removed then hers was brought down then we had a sliding bed. That too dint work for me. I still slept beside her.

Then, we had our own room. It got painted pink and all. It even has stars on it's walls. Glow in the dark spray paint ; ) Then - a bigger bed. Queen size. \m/

..

Now .. I sleep alone. No one to argue with on who sleeps on which side.. No one to hug tight around 2am or 3 just because I suddenly got sad and still can't sleep.. No one to tell my silly thoughts to and find those funny rather than my jokes that never seemed to be funny for her.. No one to laugh at when she talks in her sleep.. No one to wake up to in the morning and see her hair wet and all dressed up rushing coz she's already late for school (she's a preschool teacher).. No one to wait for at night coz she's still out with her boyfriend.. And so much more ..

She's married now .. and I am extremely happy for her.

We argue. A lot. As in. We even shout at each other for God's sake. But it's vary rare that a day ends that we aren't in good terms. We just suddenly talk like nothing happened. Or the usual, I'm the one who says sorry and all those shit.

She's just blocks away, actually. And I badly want to run there for a hug goodnight at least. But no. I should grow up. I should learn to stand on my own. I can do this. I still have my mom. And my dad. Yeah and my brothers. But she was the one I was always with - if not my parents. It's just .. I dunno.

..

Tonight was somehow .. a bit .. of a disaster. I badly wanted to see her and get to talk to her. Things have been rough at home - just tonight though. Then while we were having dinner, my kuya looked for my sister. He asked if she's not coming home anymore. Then my mom said yes, she won't be coming home anymore and stuff. Then she also said that my sister said that she'll be home on Sundays. I finished my food right away then ran upstairs coz I couldn't hold my tears anymore. Then .. I call her right up. Blabbed shit then kept on crying. I looked like a freakin' kid who was got left behind or something. LOL.

I dint know why but I suddenly wished for everyday to be a Sunday. I even hate hearing mass (reasons will be stated some other time though I aint an atheist or anything like that) .. but I'd hear mass everyday if I'd get to be with her.

Oh well papel. Life must go on. I'll get used to this soon. ; )

If Sunday was the only day I could see you .. I hope and pray that God would make it Sunday everyday.