This post goes to Tarts, Empi, B1 and other highschool loves:)
I already have a boyfriend. LOL.
(PLEASE DON'T TELL ANYONE ELSE COZ IF THIS REACHES MY PARENTS I'D BE SO DEAD. WELL, ANG ALAM NILA IS HE'S COURTING ME PA - BUT PLEASE, LET ME BE THE ONE TO TELL EM COZ I GOT PLANS ON WHEN AND HOW - SO SHUT YOUR PIEHOLE AND BE A GOOD FRIEND:* THANK YOU! LOL.)
His name is John Rae Valiente. I met him at my college friend's debut just this January. January 8 to be exact. That night, I swear I barely noticed him and some of you even know I got my dibs on his friend. I was even with him till I don't know what AM - but we barely talked and again, I barely noticed him.
How and when did it all start? Well, we started to sort of have this group called TAGS. We're 6 in the group. Jodie, Ingrid, Irvy, Jerome, John Rae and me - Sarah. LOL. January 29, 2011 - College Night sa AC. That day din, we had our Open House sa school. We attended the Open House - but ditched college night. We, TAGS - went to Tagaytay. This was the second time we'd ever meet. But before this day - we've been communicating thru fb - not just me and him - but all of us. Hanggang 12 ng gabi - I was with them. That time, I still dint find myself attracted to him. But I did know that I always - always found him funny.
Tas sa fb, yun nga. He's really funny. He's best friends with Irvy - Ingrid's current boyfriend. Things were pretty fast between em - but you wont doubt it if it's real - coz it totally seems like it is. Anyways, I'm really good friends with Ingrid - we're close. So when things between her and Irvy were turning up pretty good - napapadalas din yung usap namin ni John Rae. Still - walang kahit ano. Pero yun nga - tawang tawang tawa ako lagi sakanya. It's like after a really long day from school - sa gabi yun yung pinaka epic kong tawa - pag nakausap ko na siya.
We never became cheesy - there never was anything clear. We just got to talk to each other often - and yeah again, he never failed to make me laugh.
I found myself starting to like him when I knew I started to WANT to talk to him every night if possible. That when I thought about him during the day - I'd remember our conversation and I'd just find myself smiling. But that was plain simple attraction. Then one day, Ingrid told me that Irvy was gonna pick her up at school and was gonna bring a friend along. He mentioned someone else. Ingrid and I go home together as well. Tas when we got out of the school tas walking na ... chenen. Irvy was with John Rae. My tummy tumbled - it frikkin' hurt and I don't know if it were butterflies but I do know I got shocked and somewhat nataranta and shit. But of course, I had to stay calm and act normal. Well, before that day nga pala - I don't remember when - when Irvy dropped by just to see Ingrid for a while and brought her donuts ... while I was with him sa labas ng school ... I remember having to mention some other guy's name but his name slipped out of my stupid little mouth. Tas I couldn't hide my smile anymore - and Irvy just kept on teasing me and I felt like shitshitshit. Going back to the day they fetched Ingrid - I wanted to go home because I was nervous but wanted to stay because I wanted to be with him I think - LOLOLOL. Then then then, we ate at Mcdo. Irvy and Ingrid left the two of us - and he was quiet like shit - he barely even looked at me. But that's fine. Medj nairita pa ko after that day - I was thinking that if ever he knew that I liked him - ang feeler naman if he'd ignore me.
But things dint get awkward. We still talked often thru chat and stuff. Tas still - none. Time passed and mas napapatagal yung paguusap namin. Wala naman kaming pinaguusapan - pero tawang tawa parin ako.
Tas .. ayun. Fast forward to the time it was just the two of us. LOL. Well, it was Anna Llamas' birthday. And bago yun, nagaya na ko na magmovie kaming group. Since pwede ako lumabas that day. Well wait. Di pala. Day before that pala - kachat ko siya. Then nagaya siya ng movie - tas sabi ko kaming dalawa lang ba then he said ayain ko daw yung iba. HOHO~ but - to cut the pretty long story short - we ended up watching a movie - ng just the two of us. We watched Rango. And to those who know me pretty well - I've never ever gone to the movies with a guy ng kaming dalawa lang. Even I dint know what came over me that time for me to agree to watch a movie ng kami lang. Anyways, nothing happened naman sa movie house. But there was this part wherein I got his phone and dint want to give it back - I turned around and when he was trying to get the phone back - it was like he was hugging me or it was just my imagination. Shempre kilig na kilig ako that time and kung pwede lang di ko na ibalik - but I did. And just recently - he told me he was trying to hug me. HEE HEE:"> LOL. Goiiiing baaack - I still dint want to assume anything. But I do know I had such a huge smile on my face the entire time. He tagged along sa dinner pa nga e. After dinner - wala lang. Normal bye lang. He even stayed with my friends pa that night. Tas when he got home - nakatext ko pa siya till 2am I think? Ah basta. Wala parin.
Now, that was the first time na kaming dalawa lang. Nowwww fast forward to ..... when was the first time I sort of could assume stuff already - it was after they had dinner at home. After dinner, when they were about to leave already, Irvy hugged me goodbye. Tas he was about to hug me too tas turned around and said next time na daw and shit pag daw may muscles na siya. LOLOLOL. Basta. Medj ka-bv. Pero pero - he made bawi when he texted me that night when he said na he should've hugged me coz it'd take a long time pa before we'd meet again - I felt like Nam that night kilig na kilig na kilig sobra. HAHAHAHA~ ilang days nalang kasi we'd be leaving for Cebu na - so yeah - 9days in Cebu is a pretty long time.
In Cebu - we got to text each other everyday ... and practically the whole day even:) Tas .. there was this one night in Cebu na I got to talk to him sa phone .. we talked for more than an hour or so. Still, I had a smile on my face no shit could wipe off;) :"> :)
One day in Cebu - we got to talk about him coming over .. I can't remember how the conversation went .. basta - he said he'd go here sa bahay:) Chenen. A day after ako nakabalik from Cebu, which is the day bago ako umalis for Cagayan de Oro - he dropped by:) Shempre masaya:) Pero we still never talked about what it was going on between us .. we still weren't sweet or cheesy .. we were just .. us. How we were talaga with each other:) But that day, he promised me a hug e - so he hugged me. Alam niyo yung feeling na ... everything just feels so right. Parang .. this is one hug you'd want to last forever - yung ganun? Basta yun. :)) Pero still - we dint talk about stuff. It was just nung nakauwi na siya and magkausap kami sa fb na .. we finally talked about us. It was quite a shock coz hindi lang siya umamin na he liked me - but he also confessed that he loves me. That night - ako medj nagulat - de. Nagulat talaga:o:)))) Tas .. ayun. We talked till .... almost 5am. My flight the next day was at 2pm - and it was totally fine. Mga tipong ayoko na matulog. HAHAHAHA~ but we had to not talk anymore kasi umaga na and folks were already about to get up. PS, all I told him that night was that I knew I liked him a lot - pero love? Meh~ :))
Blablabla~ I got my phone back that day. Wala kasi akong phone for 2days. HEHEHEHE~ long story. Tas .. ayun. The whole stay in Mindanao was ... fun - of course. Pero what made every day feel so much better to wake up to - was the thought that I could get to talk to him again - text or talk sa phone. So .. one week yun. Every night, magkausap kami. Tas till one night, we were talking about the moon .. tas kesyo may sinisigaw yung buwan. Tas he actually told me "I love you Sarah" daw yung sinisigaw nung buwan - pero that was thru text. Tas I still dint respond to it. Pero shempre - mamatay matay na ko sa tuwa. HAHAHAHA~ and then .. April 17 - kausap ko hanggang almost 6am sa phone - so April 18 na yun. Around 5am - nung maliwanag na .. he actually said I love you tas .. ayun - I was so damn weak - I responded. HOHO~ :))))))
So there. Sa text .. lagi ng may Love you:) Tas .. pero sa phone .. medj di pa masyado pero yeah - we ended up saying it often narin nung mga last days ko na dun;) :)) HEE HEE. Sa dp ko sa fb, siya kausap ko sa phone:"> Saya ko no?:"> HEE HEE HEE. Ayun:)
He was supposed to fetch me sa airport but parents said sa bahay nalang. Soooo~ he came by kahit super late na. We got here almost 9 na. Flight kasi namin medj nadelay. Tas ayun. Nakasama ko lang siya for 2hours. He left na ng 11 e. Makati pa uwi niya so - :')
We became official just this Monday - April 25th. I had to meet up with sir Hans. That day din, we had lunch with my aunt and my cousin Karmina. Tas right after meeting up with sir Hans, we headed home narin;)
He .. makes me happy. He makes me feel secure. He .. inspires me. He's sweet. He's funny. He's determined? Not with me in particular - but how he wants his life to be like. He's got really good family ties and stuff. He's caring. He's patient with me. He's making extra effort (I think) to please me;) John Rae's my answered prayer, guys;) I seriously could not ask for more;)
He lives in Makati and he studies at PATTS - and he wants to be a pilot. As far as I know and from what he tells me - he's sure that this thing we've got is for real - as in ito na. As in talaga. from where I'm coming from - believing his promises would be hard and a bit impossible considering the fact na parang ang bilis ng lahat - pero I dunno. Somewhat naniniwala na ko sa love story ng iba na ... pag ito na - ito na. Gets? May mga bagay na kaya mo lang pinapatagal because you're still doubting it and you lack faith in what you feel that's why you still can't commit yourself to it - but when you know it - you just know it. ;) Parang .. love just suddenly defies the length of time, distance and a whole lot more. All I'm trying to say is ... though all that really matters is how strong our faith is in the two of us - it would help a lot if people important to us had as much faith in us too;) Do you guys get me?;) So ... here.
Walang pwedeng magsabi na I'm not sharing or why dint I tell you or whatever coz everything's here na. And it's pretty much obvious that you mean a lot to me as to why you're able to read this. I wanted you to know. ;)
If you got questions or insights or whatever - feel free to ask/tell me. LOLOLOL~ Thank you:):))
Yun lang:)
