Rather a change of heart :)

Sometimes .. it doesn't matter if there's "something" or there isn't any at all. Because sometimes .. all that could ever matter is how happy you are. I mean .. right now .. I'm so happy. The type of happiness you feel wherein you'd want the whole world to know how happy you are? HEE HEE. Heck no, I'm not in love - no, not falling either. :)

I don't know what this is, even. It's so confusing that I no longer want to be confused by it and for once - after so long - I'm letting go. It's like ... hindi talaga mahalaga malaman kung ano ba yung meron - ang mahalaga lang talaga is - masaya ako. And another thing is, it's so simple. Super simple. And I'm not even doing anything wrong. I'm not able to hurt others naman - and I don't think this thing right now would upset anyone for that matter. Ang labo ko no? HEHE.

What I'm trying to say is - sobrang babaw nito kung tutuusin. Kase - wala naman talaga. I don't know if I like him in a different way - but I do like him in a way that - he makes me happy without him even knowing that he does. This time around - this guy is really funny. He cracks the shit out of me. Stress reliever - super. He's nakakatuwa and nakakatawa - but that's just it. Period. ; )

No signs of anything naman so - no reason to fall or whatsoever. And I doubt that I'd fall without anything clear or whatever.. but I'm really really really happy :)

I get to chat with him for hours - and in that 4 or 5 hours of talking to him - I cannot stop smiling. Seriously. Even now that I'm no longer talking to him - my smile's like - WHOA. Hahaha. I dunno. ;)

Maybe I'm also this happy because ... in my mind, I know that I'm not expecting for anything at all. It's like, everything's so casual. Isa pa, I'm in no rush to be with someone naman right now e.

For me, what I think and how I see it - he's not the type who'd court girls and stuff. Though I do think he's the type who'd be serious with relationships ... I just don't think that ... I dunno. Mahirap iexplain e. Isa pa - I don't need to analyze anything. Wala naman kelangan i-analyze e? Kse wala naman talaga. Pero yun nga.

Ang saya ko :) Sobra :)

Dati .. I could remember holding Justin's hand (ex) real tight ... close my eyes then pray aloud. I'd often tell God .. "Papa God ... please please please let him be THE ONE. If he's not the one ... PLEEEEASE :( Siya nalang. Please please please. Kasi I know na .. there is no one else I would ever want to spend the rest of my life with but him. I mean .. kung may ibang nakalaan para sakin .. PLEASE .. si Justin nalang :( Oo? Talaga? Thank you!"

And now .. I'm all like ... "Papa God .. sana siya :) Pag siya - THANK YOU! :* Pero .. pag hindi siya, edi hindi siya ;) Thank you padin ;)"

DIBA - ang laki ng pinagkaiba.

So yeaaah~ I'm happy. So happy. Super happy. Hope this doesn't fade or wear off though. ; )

GOODNIGHT, earthlings! :* Oh and .. wish us luck!:D My block and I anddddd - it's also his finals tomorrow:) Wish him luck too:D HEE HEE <3

:)