Hi. I'm Sarah. 2.0

I've been thinking of introducing myself again. And before I decided to finally start on this post - I remembered how I once wrote one before! Lo and behold - Hi. I'm Sarah. - an extremely stupid entry I wrote 3 years ago =)) I mean seriously. Shut the fuck up =))

I've just realized how I've changed - A LOT!! 3 years back? Damn I sounded like a huge kid. And it's really as if my view on love was just so - I don't really know how to describe it. But it seemed like a kid's view on love? The type of love that hasn't woken up yet - the type that hasn't seen the reality of everything else yet.

It's so funny how in the latter part I said I know I'd meet him soon. True enough - I did meet the guy in less than a month after I posted that entry. It's so hilarious, really. How I've always been that girl who was head over heals in love WITH love itself.

I just can't believe how I sounded like a thirteen year old girl back then. Anyway. I wonder how I'd look back at this one though.

Okay let's start over.

Hi. I'm Sarah. I'm currently 21 years old. I'll be turning 22 on the 30th of January 2014. I'm stoked, really. And hopefully my birthday next year wont be as sad as it usually has been. I don't know what happens to me during my birthdays. At first, I'll be so excited about it. And then just before the clock strikes 12 - I get upset as fuck and I just want the day to pass by super fast. Weird. I know.

I no longer love the color orange. And this still surprises the people who've known me for a pretty long time already. I'm currently in love with pink. Hot pink to be exact. Also with navy blue, teal, and gray. Well I think it's really just the first three. But it just so happens that majority of my wardrobe is color gray. I've been thinking lately and I honestly just want all my clothes to be in the shade of black, white, and gray. Please. Don't bother correcting me with what a shade is, what a color is, and what a hue is. Kthanks.

I took a personality test the other day. And results were freakishly correct. Except for that part wherein people of my personality are insensitive. I AM MORE than sensitive. And I am HIGHLY emotional. I don't know what it was I answered that gave the impression that I had that kind of trait. HAHAHAHA. Anyhoo. I'm apparently an INTP.

This time, this isn't a letter addressed to my future husband. No no no. This is really just for me. So I can keep track of my thoughts. And how I actually view myself.

What else, what else.

It's funny how it's not really that I don't have anything to say about myself anymore. It's just amusing that this time - I analyze stuff first in my mind before really blurting them out. Even in my blog. I suppose back then I just fired away.

The basics would probably be my age. And um. Right now I'm a freelancer. But I'm currently considering employment again - but it's something I'm still gonna consider till next year March. I currently have a project I'm really stoked about - and till that one's over - my career plans are on hold.

I think it's amazing how I have so many plans for my life. Though I'm the type who's spontaneous and adventurous - I'm still also the type who has lots and lots of dreams. I mean - though I don't really plan how my day should turn out - I'm the type who knows what she wants. I'm a bit drowsy already but I'm gonna try to finish this as clear as possible. Hahahaha.

I mean. I think that's better than not knowing what I want. I know what I want - and the reasons why I want those things I want. I believe I'm not a shallow person. And I believe that there are great things awaiting to happen - in my life.

I'd love to discuss with you my views on work and how I deal with it at the moment - but that would take too long.

I still am and will forever have that childlike heart of mine who will always love cartoons. And taking naps. Long ones. And playing games - no matter how childish they may be. I'm still that little girl who has those times wherein I only find comfort in hugging my mom or hearing her voice. I'm still that little girl who'll always be curious. About life and how the world goes on about it. I'm still the little girl who'll always believe in Neverland - and whatever other things Neverland could really mean to me personally.

I am God's little princess, and I deserve nothing but the best. I've grown up to everyday learn and know my worth. And it's not for me to just settle for anything less. I've grown up to know that I should set standards and really live by it. And by setting standards - I should also build myself as worthy as can be too.

I've come to a point wherein I'm again always in thirst for knowledge about God and His teachings. It's weird and good at the same time wherein nowadays - I try to finish reading my other books - but end up reading inspirational/God-centered ones. Like right now - I still haven't finished reading Haunted by Chuck Palahniuk. I love Palahniuk - like I really really do. But Joshua Harris has been really stealing my attention. The moment I finished reading I Kissed Dating Goodbye, I went back to bringing Haunted with me wherever I'd go. But I end up coming home from somewhere and realize I dint touch the book the entire day. But when I bring Dug Down Deep with me - I read it anywhere. I read it in the bus, while waiting in line, in the bank - I mean seriously. What is happening. Hahahahaha but I promise to finish Haunted after this one. ;) It's just that - I wanna be that kind of person who can always quote a bible verse and know what she's talking about - and is able to live her life accordingly. ;)

I finally know what specific genre of music I'm really really into. I used to be so confused with what my genre would be - and now I finally know! Indie rock. I'm currently into Smallpools, Vampire Weekend, Kodaline, Phoenix, Passion Pit, Lorde, Sigur Ros, Panama Wedding, The Colourist, The Neighborhood - and so much more. But of course the classics/oldies will never ever get old for me. <3 I'll always love The Carpenters, The Beatles, Air Supply, Bon Jovi, Queen, etc etc etc etc. And the 90's too. Of course. I'll always sing along to Backstreet Boys, NSYNC, A1, Boyz II Men - and the like.

I love bookstores. Libraries. Coffee shops. Japan Home stores. And toy stores. And I'm thinking supermarkets too will always be heavenly. I'd like to make mention of Rustan's. I love how classy everything looks!!! Ohh the packaging of their goods - I just love them. Classy and minimalistic. Looks much yummier. If I get lost - these are the places you could try to look for me at. Probably Fully Booked at BGC or or Fully Booked in ATC. Hobbes and Landes too. Toy Kingdom - not so anymore since all I can do with the toys are fucking look at them -_- Hobbes and Landes allows you to play inside the store! Lovely lovely feeling. <3 OH OH OH - AMUSEMENT PARKS. I love amusement parks. But I really wish they had that much of a carnival type feeling the movies are able to give me. Someday, if I get really really rich, I'll have all of these! For bookstores/libraries, I'll have weekly story tellings, puppet shows, and book trades <3 Maybe this is where I could hold a Sunday school too. For kids who want to learn how to read - and then I'll also teach them all the things I know about Jesus. :) A toystore wherein kids could come in and play - as long as they know how to take good care of the toys. It'll be just like that of Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium. :) And then an amusement park wherein there'll be a twice a month open to everyone kind of event. All rides will be for free! :)

Besides these - I'll put up a restaurant/cafe someday. :) And it'll be incredible.

I wanna travel. Get a tattoo or two. And finally have the courage to wear contact lenses.

With regards to my awesome love life - I'm in no rush at all into meeting anyone who'd supposedly sweep me off my feet. That time will come. As of the moment, I have a lot of people I truly deeply cherish so much too much and they just make me so much happy. Come to think of it - I don't think I even do "need" a guy in my life right now. Not yet. If ever I would - I'd want to be with someone who's willing to accept that he cannot be my center of attention. I have so much to be busy with right now - and I just don't think there's someone who could be cool with the things I've set as my priorities just yet. If he can wait - then good. But I wouldn't want any guy to put his life on hold for me - instead - I'd much more appreciate if he'd focus on other things at the moment too. And we can pursue each other in the future. Hahahahahahajk but seriously speaking. What.

I've blogged already about the things I want in a guy. But these are the top 3 qualities I'd want in him. First is that he is a man of God. I wouldn't mind coming in 2nd or 3rd in his life if it's God who comes first and his mom comes 2nd. Second is that he is a family man. He's got good family ties and has a clear understanding of how we should get along with how we would raise a family together. Our values - no matter what our differences may be - be it about our culture or something else - our values should be as one. Third would be his faithfulness. His faithfulness towards me and our relationship together would automatically include trust and love. He is to be honest with me at all times and love me enough that he'd never dare do anything to break my heart. I want to have a relationship that's grounded and centered on God. That's all that really matters. And I believe that when I find him and he finds me - this time. Without a doubt. It'll be beyond perfect. All these - I leave in God's loving hands. ;)

What else. What else. What else is a must know about me that I'd wanna know years from now. Hmm. Hmm. I think that this'll do for now. Maybe if something comes up I'll have a follow up and entitle it with Hi. I'm Sarah. 2.1. ehe he he.

Ciao x :p