Hi. I'm Sarah.

Hi .. my name is Sarah. I .. I'm a very random person. I'm a bit crazy and I often laugh even at the most non-funniest type of things even I don't know why. I like pasta. I love lasagna in particular. I like colorful things. I love seeing rainbows, fireworks, and full moons. I love it when it rains. Another good reason to stay in at home and just sleep or watch tv or eat cereals all day long. I often sound like a kid. But I'm at the same time one of the most serious people you could talk to about anything. I dance in the shower. And there's been a lot of times I've slipped and thanked God I'm still alive and my head aint bleeding or something. I enjoy ice creams and french fries with lots of ketchup. I claim that the sweet chili sauce at home is "my ketchup". I like kids as much as I hate cats. If they're fat - they're cute. If they aint - SCRAM. Get outta my sight. I curse. I don't like hearing mass. I'm picky with who'd give the homily/sermon. My favorite color's orange. My 2 favorite movies of all time are 50 First Dates and PS. I Love You. Most of my pictures have got wacky faces. I've got backne, pimples on my face, pick my nose, fart and take usual dumps. I smell good - I think and would love to believe so. I like my eyes and my eyelashes. I've got a neat set of teeth. I think it's creepy to sleep beside a sister who talks in her sleep.

I haven't watched a movie with a guy yet - just the two of us. But with a group, I have. I've just held one guy's hand in my whole life. Like .. genuinely. I've just kissed one guy in my whole life as well. I'm still a virgin and I'd be glad to keep it that way till I get married. I've only had one boyfriend. But has fallen in love twice. Same thing with getting my heart broken. Twice. I don't know when a guy's got the dibs on me. I don't like assuming things like those. I'd like to believe that my engagement in fourth year high school was real enough to stumble over a break up over a long distance call. I'm over my ex. And I've got good memories of him. I want to meet someone new. But whenever something comes up - I always do the same thing. I again, run away from it. Push em away and try my best to not be attractive or be fall-able.

I blog a lot. When I'm not busy. I take my studies seriously. But not in a way that I don't sleep just to study. I cram. I try my best not to fall asleep in class. I often wish it was legal to eat anything in class. Like lunch or even a hotdog sandwich would do for someone who hasn't had breakfast yet. I'm not fond of drinking milk. It's .. tasteless for me. I prefer it'd have sugar or be mixed with cereal. I wish multivitamins weren't as big as a third of my pinky. I wish they'd make syrups for adults aged 18 and above. Unfair for people who don't like taking in tablets. I eat a lot. I burp. But only with family or really close people. I prefer eating big burgers over thin crust pizzas and salads. I love street food. But I try my best to stop eating them since thay seriously aint healthy. I don't smoke. Friends have let me try it once - dint like it even a bit. I drink. But just for fun. I don't drink to get drunk or whatever. I think it's stupid coz it just takes you out of reality while you're drunk. Once you're sober - problem's back. I prefer sleeping over sad stuff or singing them off.

I pray. A lot. Silently or aloud. Don't worry. My aloud prayers are either required or as simple as "THANK YOU GOD!" coz I've found what I'm looking for. Me and God - we're tight. Super.

I stay up late. A lot. A lot, a lot. And it isn't healthy. Like right now, it's already 3:55am and I'm still up. I don't know. It's been a long time since I last woke up and had an awesome dream. My dreams are either creepy, gives me shivers, or too stupid or or not that significant at all. PS, I stay up late and get up early. I don't know why. But I love sleep. I sleep after breakfast. Then after lunch. Haha.

I used to wanna be a wedding planner. But uhh .. things changed. Now, I'm not quite sure what I wanna be. But I'm sure that it has something to deal with art.

If I were to sell myself - I think I'm very marketable. My skills, talent, looks, personality - I'm like the ideal girlfriend, friend, best friend, daughter, (sibling .. not so. Maybe to a sister - can be) .. I know how to compromise, I'm funny (at least for some - I am), I know how to listen - hours of blabbering wont be that hard to listen to, I'm sweet, I'm thoughtful, I'm - I dunno. Maybe you could try to get to know me. And of all these characteristics - I still wonder why I'm single, why when in relationships it is I who gets left behind. ( /wrist ) LOL. 

You see - all this information? They're what .. one percent of who I am. And I could blab all day about myself and how I know myself. But you see, this is just some stupid blog some people create to express themselves because the internet just takes it all in. Everything and anything you want to tell em. And you might be wondering what this post is all about .. it's a letter. A letter to my future someone. ;)

Where art thou, my dear? I suppose God still aint done with you. I wonder how perfect you must be for me. I .. I just wish He could be done with you much earlier though ; ) Because these are the times I miss having someone to talk to. The times I miss actually having just one guy to think of when I open my eyes and as I fall asleep. I miss having to call someone up. I miss having visits. I miss having random hugs. I miss having someone to eat out with. I miss having someone. I really do. I bet anyone would if they've once experienced their ideal relationship.

I want to meet you. ASAP! But if it aint anytime soon, it's fine with me ;) I suppose you're worth the wait ;) I could just imagine how we could spend rainy days together. How we could have long walks and not run out things to talk about. How .. we could talk about anything and everything under the sun but not really under the sun coz that'd be hot. How .. we could be silly together and not mind what people think. How the world would seem much more amazing when I've got you to explore it with. How .. destiny suddenly becomes much more believable because over billions of other earthlings in the world - I found you - you found me. How .. waking up the next day feels much more great and exciting because .. simply because you're an additional reason to live another day another second minute or hour~ How singing love songs feel now that I've got you in mind as I do. How .. random dancing in public is much more acceptable because .. you're enough reason to look silly about though at those times I must be dancing - you're not around. How .. everyday just gets better because we've got each other. How nothing seems that hard to handle because again - we've got each other - we'll make it. I mean .. nothing would ever seem that impossible anymore. Because .. meeting you .. was so unexpected that .. tipong .. ikaw .. tayo. Tayo nga naging posible e .. ibang bagay pa kaya? ;) How .. everything .. feels like magic. But not really .. coz magic ends .. magic's fake. But you know .. just like magic - it's as awesome as .. well. What we have would be TOO anything to be able to explain what it is. HEE

But to be honest .. I don't know how things'll be. All I know is .. not meeting you would be devastating. But I doubt that'd be possible ; ) I'll meet you. Soon ;) Maybe not now. Maybe not today. Maybe not tomorrow or the day after that. But I will. I'm sure I will. Super duper sure ;) For now .. I'll work on being the best person I can be .. for myself. ;) For my family. For my friends. For God. (yihee. kinilig nanaman si God :"> HAHA) Then .. I guess it's up to you if you'll see my worth aaaand stuff like those. HEH HEH.

Please be patient with me. When you think I'm not okay .. go with your instincts. I AM not okay. Just stay there. Dance for me. Sing. Hug me. Feed me. Get me ice cream. Or take me to a movie. Put me to sleep. (I sound like some sick needy person =)) ) When I'm happy - I'm happy. When I want to be with you - I want to be with you. When I push you away - stay. When I sound childish - it's either I'm looking for attention or it's just in my nature.

When we finally meet - I'll have someone to hold hands with. I'll have someone to walk out of the cinemas and have someone to talk to about how the movie was. I'll have someone to talk to when hanging out with a group of friends who actually have their own pairs to talk to when the group convo goes to *krukru* mode. I'll have someone to call when it strikes 12 on New Year's eve. I'll have someone to call up when I simply feel lonely and want to have someone to talk to. Now that my sister's wedding is nearing .. I fear I'd turn much more into a rebel. Be much more on the laptop than I usually already am. I might not talk to my brothers even more - that's the downside. But the brighter side would be - I might talk to them since I'm about to lose my sister .. I think.

I'm not longing for a boyfriend because I got daddy issues coz I don't. Me and my dad are perfectly fine. We're tight. Me and my brothers .. well .. not so. The one I followed after - can be. But the eldest? WOOH. Not a chance. We - well I do - hate each other. It's like I love him coz I have to - loljk. I love my brothers. They just become impossible sometimes.

Going back to you - you I haven't met yet .. well ....

I'll be .. all that I can be - for you. I'll love you. And when I do - it's something quite hard to doubt or question even ;) And .. I wont break your heart. (I sound like a dude =)) ) I .. I really don't know. I just hope that .. when you arrive .. when I meet you .. there'll be no wrong time. No wrong love at the right time and no right love at the wrong time. Everything'll be perfect. And that's why I'm waiting and praying for the best of whoever you may be coz .. I'm scared. I'm fragile and and - I don't think another heartbreak's gonna do me or anyone for that matter any good at all.

All I'm saying is ... hope after you'd read this you'd already know what you're getting into. This is me from December 20, 2010 at exactly 4 something am - and I'll let you know if any of me has changed ;)

PS, if you're not up for any of these - of who I am - please do the honors of breaking my heart slowly. Because by the time I've let you read this - it must mean that I'm falling or something. LOL JUST KIDDING :))

Kthnxbye.