Cereals for Breakfast ♥

Come over by 7 or earlier. Bring a box of cereals. A box of milk. Wear nothing but white shirt. Khaki shorts. And sneakers. Show up before the sun rises. Give me a ring when you're already at my doorstep. I'll pick up. Still sleepy. But still sweet. "Yes, love?". "Get up. And look outside." Plus maybe some lame excuse to make me go out. I get overly excited. No longer wear my glasses. Get up. Go down my ladder. Unlock my door while trying to figure out where my other slipper is. Then run down the stairs. Open the front door. "Where are you?" I say on the phone. Then you suddenly creep out of somewhere. Holding a brown paperbag in your arms. Again, I get overly excited and ask "What's that! Is that for me???". Then you just smile and say "Good morning, love." Then you kiss me on the forehead. Then tell me "Let's have breakfast?". And I just have this huge smile on my face. Grab the paperbag. Check what's inside. Feeling like a kid on Christmas eve. I rush back inside the house. Get two bowls. Two spoons. Two glasses. Run back to our front porch. Then back to the kitchen empty handed. Grab two more glasses. Make my special Milo drink. Rush back to you. Rush back to the kitchen. Get a pitcher or water. Then back to you. And then I can't help but have a huger smile on my face coz the breakfast's all set. I sit down. And then you just look at me. And I just feel prettier than ever. Invite me to a prayer before meal. You lead. But include a cheesy thanksgiving. End the prayer. Hold my hand. And kiss it. "You look beautiful. No matter what time of day." I blush and tell you "I know." Then laugh. You don't touch your cereals yet. You don't begin because you're waiting for mine to be ready. You know I want my cereals soaked in milk. So we wait a little longer. Chat. Giggle. And then you start to browse through your phone. Play some music. And surprisingly you created a new playlist. The Breakfast Surprise. You look at me. Then ask "We're you surprised?". Then I just nod. Give you a really tight hug. And then I say "Thank you for making my day."

Fades to black.

Plays a cheesy love song.

Daydreaming's one of my most favorite hobbies. And I guess it's because of daydreams I keep that cheerful part of me alive. That part of me that will always always always be in love. :)

This is my cute thought for tonight. Funny enough - honest enough - I could imagine the whole scenario. But there was one thing I couldn't picture - who the guy was/is! Hahahahaha. Someday, someday. :) God's surely gonna introduce him and I'll be like ".____." HAHAHAHA.

Good night. :)

x

Filters. And my face.

Another selfie post! I think everyone does selfies. It's just that some prefer to keep their selfies private or all to themselves. But lookey look. Here are some of my photos wherein I really appreciated the filters a lot. Woot woot.

I do collages when I can't decide which photo to use. HAHAHAHAHA hashtag vain. Yep.

So here is how I naturally look, plus my edited photos.

I used Afterlight!!! It's one of my favorite apps for editing photos EVERRRR. Besides VCSO though. Hahahahaha.

Hmmmmwhatchasay?

For this first photo, I really was supposed to sleep already that night. I was just waiting up for someone to get back from the gym. LOL. Hahahahaha. So I sort of ended up taking selfies. And my hair looked really good that night! Which meant I really had to take a photo of myself right then and there. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha ok sorry.

You guys never really have to read my blog posts yaknow. This is for me. And I'll be like "Kids, check out mama's blog. Look how I look just the same?" Okay ang kapal. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

This blog is my home. My boyfriend. My ultimate lover. Who'll always be there to listen to me. And approve of anything I'll say. Whut. Ok.

This other one was just taken today! My crappy full bangs look a whole lot better now that it has grownnnnnn. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I like it when my hair's messy. Or sort of. But I do look cute, don't I? HAHAHAHAHA omg I'm so hyper right now I might end up putting this in my drafts when I've already woken myself out of my senses. =)))))))))) I just love Afterlight's dusty filters. Awesomeballs. Pero sobrang pacute nung lower right. HAHAHAHAHA

Eto. Eto talaga yung dahilan kung bakit itatago ko rin tong post na to pagtagal. Grabe. Di talaga ako marunong magmukhang hot. =))))))) Tinatry ko talaga madalas e - pero parang dito mej feel ko mej na-pull off ko naman. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA tawang tawa ako sa sarili ko, okay. Di niyo na kelangan i-judge masyado kasi ako mismo tinatabla ko na yung sarili ko. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAkkk.

Pero ang ganda talaga nung effect pag may filter na. Diba? Tsk.

Hi, friends (close friends) na makakabasa nito. Alam ko sobra kayong tumatawa ngayon. "Ano ba yan, Sarah!!!!" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA eh. Bat ba.

Shet. Embarassing and okay at the same time. Ha, ano ulit.

Dami kong tinagalog ngayon a. Hahahahahahahahahahakbyeee

xxx

Soul's Current Playlist ♥

I've got a really really long day ahead but I've been wanting to squeeze this in before anything else. Hihi.

Imma share with you guys my current playlist on repeat! These have been my feel good songs for quite some time now. :)

They wont be in order but my number one current fave is on the bottom of the list so. Yeah. Hahahaha.

1. Dreaming by Smallpools

It's such a dreamy song. I liked the lyrics so much. With this song, I could just picture a really great night with someone awesome to spend it with. Doing weird stuff. In the street. Driving around town at a time people should be sleeping already. This is the first song of Smallpools I got to hear. And I really loved this band much more when I got to hear their other songs. Next up is ...

2. Over and Over by Smallpools

Now with this one, it sounds as though the two of you have just met - but even with the first smile, the first hello, the first chat, first laughter you two shared - you just know that you wanna be with that person. It's so cute. With this I could picture a sunny afternoon and you two just decided to hang out and leave a really boring place and get to know each other. Now the music video would probably end in a way that the two of you part ways - having such huge smiles on your faces. And you know that you just want to see each other again - and you know you'll never get enough of each other and it's just...such a feel good song.

3. What Can I Say by The Colourist

Unfortunately, this is the only video I could find on YouTube. -_-

I liked the lyrics in this one too. It's as though there's this relationship that just can't seem to work out. It's as though they know they'd be perfect for each other - things are great - but it just can't work. I don't know. I believe that everyone would eventually have that kind of feeling wherein you badly want something and you know this could be it - but it just isn't.

Now it's making me think if it's a happy song hahahahaha. But I really like it.

4. Take A Walk by Passion Pit

Now I really loved Passion Pit when I first heard their song Little Secrets. Usually when I get to hear a new song, I try to listen to another one by the band and see if they're really good. The next one I loved that was by them was probably Carried Away. But of all their songs, this one's often stuck on my mind. So upbeat yet at the same time so chill. Ya get me? Ya feel me? Hahahahaha.

5. Sweater Weather by The Neighborhood

This song's quite eargasmic for me. How it sounds plus the lyrics. It's really perfect for a sweater weather. The type you'd wanna listen to and just snuggle in bed. With someone or without, in a relationship or fuckyeah single - sounds so good. It also makes me dance so yeah. Wearing nothing but a huge sweatshirt and some high socks - and eventually spend another night with your laptop and on my part surf the internet till I fall asleep or watch a good movie. This song's just.

6. All Of The People by Panama Wedding

Ohhh this one. This one has never EVER failed to lighten up my mood. It has always made me sway and just dance to it's beat. But I loved every damn line. It's like come and runaway with me - let's spend our lives together in an RV and just travel - just come away with me. Let's stop wasting time and just seriously be together. Now. Now. Now.

And now I think we're down to my top 2. HAHAHAHA. A while ago I said I've currently got a number one fave - but I suppose this next one will always be one of my favorites as well.

7. Hoppipolla by Sigur Ros

Okay okay now. Let me explain to you why this song is by far the BEST I have ever heard. I DO NOT UNDERSTAND the words or the language at all but that's what makes it so perfect! It's like - I could just listen to it and it could know how I feel. It's in Icelandic and Hopelandic. Hopelandic is a language Sigur Ros created themselves. And everytime I listen to this it just makes me me feel lighter and at ease. I can close my eyes and just listen to this the whole day. It's like yoga for my soul. HAHAHAHAHA. No, seriously. I love this song so much. It's like that of when people talk in tongues? It's like this. You listen to it and it's as though you two can perfectly understand each other. Perfect. Perfect. The rhythm - fuck. The entire composition. Uh-mazing.

8. You Know Me by the Air Traffic Controller

This. This. This is my current number one fave!!! I think I'll be listening to it till ... I dunno. Probably forever too! Hahahahahaha. It's sooooo good! The lyrics and how it was sung - the entire composition too! But above all else - the lyrics are really just perfect. Every word. It's like they perfectly understand each other - and everything's all out there. The flaws and all their imperfections - it's all fine with either of them. And they'll try to make it work. Okay I can't fully explain it with how I really feel about the song. So I'll post the lyrics instead. HAHAHAHAHA.

But I dunno. I somewhat sound like the girl I guess. Her lines. But um, I guess I've yet to find the guy who'll know me and just. Just listen to the song mkay. Kk thanks. Hahahahaha.

You know me

You know everything about me now

My heart is in your hands, and you know you could break it

But wouldn’t you rather make me sing like this?

You know me

I try to find some good in everything

Since you came along, somehow this got easy

’cause all you wanna do is please me, my love

This could be a roller coaster

But we’re gonna make the most of it

whether on top, or we’re going down, you know me

You know me (I know you)

And how I get when I’m uncomfortable

If I’m too hot, or cold

tired, bored, or hungry

I’m fine when you’re around me, boy

And you know me

I’ve never been on time for anything

I do apologize, I know it’s such a bother

I promise to try harder for you, girl, oh I will

This is a risk worth taking

It’s love in the making

we’ve got nothing up our sleeves

We got another stand-in

I don’t think we could have planned it

Better I know, cause you know, you know me

You know me (you know me)

I work too much, I’m always on the run (honey I know it’s only just begun)

You know how hard it can be (to go on chasing something)

This could amount to nothing, when its all said and done

I think you can make me better

I’m looking ahead, but I’ll never

get anything that helps me see

that if you can be proud of me

and proud of yourself, cause you got me

But darling you know, we both know, you know me

Oh, and I’ll never hurt you darling, you know damn well

And I’ll never make you wonder if the things that I tell you ain’t the honest truth

I’ve had a lot of folks who say its hard to mean (?)

Yeah, but no one would ever know me like you know me

That was just about it. I've got eight songs on repeat. 

Off to workkkkkkkkk. Work from home. HAHAHAHAHA. No, seriously.

Ciao x :)

Let This Be The Last ♥

Let this be the last time I'll address anything to you and for you. I don't even know if this will ever come across you. I don't even know if this would mean anything to you. But let me express myself. And allow me to write this one for you.

This post is influenced by the random thoughts of you today. And how this current mix on 8tracks is making me write all the more.

I hope all is well with you. I want you to know that if ever you are wondering about me too, I'm doing great. I've been really really happy. There've been a lot of days wherein I just couldn't contain my happiness. And right now I don't know why but I feel like crying - and I've got a smile on my face. I'm happy. I really am. And with this happiness I feel - I somewhat hope you are too.

I'd like to strongly believe that I am really over you already. The thoughts of you no longer make me mad or anything. I still wonder at times - what could those mean - but no longer have those feelings of disgust or anything at all. I feel as though I've completely let you go by hoping all the best be with you as well. I still pray for you. I pray that you find whatever it is you're looking for. I pray that if ever you have found whatever that may be - I hope you take care of it so much you wont lose it anymore.

May it be happiness, love, peace, or yourself - I hope you're well. I hope you find it or her or whatever.

I want you to know that I am thankful for everything. Everything I've been through. And everything WE have been through. I am thankful to have met you. I am thankful to have had you in my life. I must admit that you still have been one of those people who really have made me the happiest - for a really long time. I will always be thankful for everything we've been through. May it be good or bad - I'm thankful.

I can't wait that you'd have a good life too. I can't wait to hear in the future that you've finally reached your dreams. All those you've shared with me - I really hope you never lose hope in everything you've once aimed for. I want you to keep dreaming and believing in yourself. I hope that you'd always find inspiration and strength around you. If those are still the dreams you have planted in you, I hope you study really well. I can't wait for you to graduate! And then work really hard as a mechanic and then eventually work your way up and become a captain. Whatever suits you or whatever would make you happy - I hope you'll never give up on yourself or worse - on life. Okay?

I hope you'd really really just be happy. Because I still somewhat feel that things might just be put to waste if you're not happy. Right? So make yourself happy. Make sure you always do the right thing. Things may be hard from time to time - but I want you to be strong. Be wise and don't be stupid. Stop being immature and grow up. Okay? There's a time for everything and not everyone will always understand you. Not everyone will always understand you. And I'd like to believe that for a really long time - I did. Above anyone and everyone else ... I did.

I hope the thought of me makes you thankful too. I hope you dint have any regrets with me either. Because I sure know that everything I've had with you - has it's various reasons.

I hope you fall in love - and I can't wait that you do! :') If you already are - I'm so so so happy for you. :') And I hope that when you find (or have found) her - you'll take really good care of her - much more than you ever took care of me. :) You are capable of loving - and I know you are capable of so much more. I strongly believe that it just takes the right person to make everything else to fall into place. :') And I would honestly be happy for you.

I hope that in your entire journey - you'll find God too. ;) I hope that in everything you go through, you'll have Him in mind. ;) Pray more often, okay? And know that God always has His reasons. You'll just have to be strong enough and have faith in Him. ;)

The things that have been happening to me lately are just so ... surreal and at the same time - incredibly amazing. I always feel so immensely blessed with my family and friends. It's like everyday - I could say that "I could never be happier" :') I think anyone else can feel the same way I do as long as they count their blessings as often as always. ;) But thinking about it - I COULD be happier! And I will be happier - through God as well. :) I know He has lots and lots and lots more in store for me - for us! For everyone♥ It's just - enjoying the present and making the most out of it - always.

And before I wrote this blog, I've been asking myself.

Do I still love you?

And without having to think twice or pause - I'd say yes. I still do. I always have. And I always will. ;) And this is because ... I don't think we ever really stop loving someone. It's just a matter of loving someone else ... more. ♥ :')

You will always be a part of me.

And let me leave you with one of my most favorite lines from Joshua Harris' book.

"True love isn't expressed in passionately whispered words, an intimate kiss or an embrace; before two people are married, love is expressed in self-control, patience, even words left unsaid."

Thank you x goodbye.

This Chapter ♥

I suppose it's been a long time since my last love post. I always talk about love don't I? Hahaha. Well it's probably because I'll always be in love. With life and love itself.

So there's this new song I just heard last night. And I must say - it's the best I've ever heard. Like - THE best song ever. The composition and everything else - it's perfect. All credits to a really good friend of mine. But maybe I'll blog about him some other time. :)

Right now ... there's this thing I wanna blog about. And as usual - it's gonna be about me and my thoughts and my feelings. HAHAHAHAHA no duh, Sarah.

I've been thinking about it lately. And I'm pretty definite about what I want in a relationship. With a guy. Like a boyfriend or whoever it is I'll be spending the rest of my life with.

I want to meet someone - and I want us to take a lot of time in getting to know each other.

I want a guy who WANTS me more than he NEEDS me. Let's not really talk about love first.

I want a courtship that takes into account everything about each other. Get to know each other well enough before going to something really serious or whatever.

I want someone who WANTS me because that's something he DECIDES on. It's a VOLUNTARY feeling. Not unlike someone who JUST NEEDS me. Because when someone needs me - those needs could always be met by someone else. It's not true that there's only one person in the world who could fill up those empty spaces in ourselves. It's just that we choose them. We allow that certain person to fill those spaces in. Not because they're the only ones who can - but because they're the only person we allow to do so. Or this is something only I believe in?

Look at it this way. When I was in a relationship - it wasn't really all about FEELINGS. There were times wherein the feelings got shady and honestly there have been times wherein the flame just ran out of fuel or something. But I decided to stay. I KNEW that someone else could make me happier. I KNEW that someone else could treat me better. I KNEW that someone else out there would REALLY never dare do such stuff to me. I KNEW that someone else could exert more effort for me. I KNEW that there is someone else out there - who could be much more fit to be with me - in a way that everything will be in it's perfect balance. Where the compromising easily comes and that nothing could ever make me doubt our existence - together.

But I stayed. I stayed in my past relationships because love is a choice. It's something you decide to work on. It's something you fix when there are bits and pieces damaged. It's something you choose to do. Even if it took everyday to make it last.

Like ... there've been times in the past wherein it was a DAILY fucking struggle to stay with a person. You try and try to make things work. It was tiring - really. To work on something ... and feel as though you're working on it alone. I guess that's when relationships fall apart. When it's no longer being worked on at by the people involved.

So I've decided - I'll only allow myself to be with someone - who WANTS me. Who wants to be with me. Who will DECIDE to be with me. Will decide to LOVE me - no matter how hard it might take.

Every guy I get to be with would ALWAYS always tell me that the guy before him has been a jerk to leave me. Tells me the guy before him was an ass and stupid enough to let me go.

It's kind of hard really ... to take that in and not feel as though there might be something wrong with me. Because they say the same shit - tell you they'd DEFINITELY not be the douche who left you ... but eventually still leave you.

Everyone tells me it just so happens that I keep ending up with the wrong ones. That I should never feel that there's something wrong with me. I'd like to really believe that.

I swear. I really do.

You know what? I just can't wait to meet him. Whoever he is and may be - I just can't wait. I'm so ecstatic - really. To finally meet that guy I'm meant to spend my life with.

Am I hard to be with? Let me see.

I've often evaluated myself as a girlfriend. And I really don't understand what else a guy could ask for.

You wanna go out with friends? Okay, cool with me. Do you need to text me while you're with them? Nope. If you wanna just be with them the whole night - totally cool with me. Just maybe you could text me when you get to the place you guys are gonna meet up at. And that's about it. And maybe allow me to kiss you good night on the phone. So that's about two phone calls the entire night, isn't it? Just two. If you can't do either - just tell me. I'll understand.

You're running late? I hate waiting - but I still always wait. Always. Now don't take my patience for granted. If you're running late - tell me. Tell me if you woke up late. Tell me if you're just about to take a shower. Tell me you're not sure what time you'll be here - but at least give me an estimate. Around 2 hours? Tell me. Tell me if your dad asked you to do something. Tell me if your mom let you do errands - if those are the reasons why you'll be running late. Or if it's a total emergency - tell me "Baby I'll be late so sorry explain things later love you" Something like that will work with me. And I'll wait for you. Even if it takes more than two hours. I'll be fine waiting. I can always kill time with a book or the internet or with something else. Besides - I can always not wait for you either. It really depends. But don't tell me you're on your way when really - you're just on your way to the bathroom to take a shower. Then have lunch. Don't be a douche. Don't expect me to wait just because you know I will. I want you to take me seriously. I want you to know that MY personal time is of importance too. And that my world doesn't just revolve around you.

You'll be hanging out with other girls? Totally fine with me. You hiding that fact that there are other girls is the thing that would make me think. That's when you'll make me doubt you and worry and go paranoid. Actually - for every time you're with some other girl, whatever it is you do with her, say to her or anything at all in relation to her or with her - think about it if I were with some other guy. That's just about it. Like, the moment you think about approaching her for some other reason you wouldn't accept if I were to approach some other guy - then I suggest you don't do it. Do you understand me? I am a very very selfish person - with the right reasons. I get jealous - WITH reason. If you DO NOT give me a reason to become all uneasy with a girl you know - then all's cool with me. Really. Don't tell me "Oh it's nothing. Don't think about it." That statement itself makes me uneasy. Just. Just know what you're doing. Be wise about every action you do. Okay? Okay.

These are my top three issues I guess. Well - the top three things me and my ex used to argue about.

Don't ever give me false hope. Don't ever DARE lie to me. Don't EVER EVER EVER tell me anything you're NOT SURE OF. Don't tell me you miss me if you don't. Don't tell me you love me if it's just because you were extremely happy that day. Don't tell me you love me if it's because you've never felt this way before with anyone else. I want you to be sure about it. Tell me you love me if and when you've already thought about it. And ask yourself this "Would I still love her even when all else fails?" If you don't even have to think twice about it - and immediately tell yourself YES, YOU WOULD - then maybe that's the right time for you to tell me. I guess. Hahaha.

Just don't. Don't make promises you can't keep. Just do things. Show me. Make me feel your love. Express it through actions more than just words. Yes, telling me stuff means a lot. But after everything I've been through - I prefer feeling things instead. I can't always just rely on a man's word anymore. I have far gone trusting anyone ... really.

I can't tell you how long it'll take for you to win my heart. But it comes easily ... and naturally. It can even take just about a day to win me over. I swear. I just think it does take the right person to do so. Like - you can win my heart by day one - but it'll take a few more days, months, or years before I myself am sure about you too.

I don't want breaking any guy's heart either. That's probably why I'm a huge runner. I run when things get too close to getting there. Because I know I can't. Not now. Not yet. And unfortunately enough - not with you. My decision to stay and get to know you better probably means I'm ready to take another leap of faith. Not necessarily on love right away. But on you - as another human being I'd willingly share myself with.

My walls are just so so high now. I'm like Rapunzel. And I'm the one who put myself on top of the tower. Nope - I don't need saving. I'm okay being in my tower right now. It just takes the right person I guess - for me to again let down my hair and welcome him into my world. But no worries. Rapunzel knows how to open her door - and go down the tower herself too. And maybe then she'd try to get to know your world too. :)

What do I want ...

I want someone who'll go with me on adventures. Lots and lots and lots of adventures. We'll go hiking, travel, learn new stuff together, try new stuff together - we'll do so much together. I want someone I could eat tons and tons of food with. Well if he's health conscious - he could eventually influence me with what to eat and not too. I want someone who doesn't mind doing random stuff with me. We'll do weird and crazy things together. You'll never ever ever get bored with me. We'll visit art museums and act as though we're really great artists and try to speak French. We'll go to music festivals from all over the world and sing our lungs out together and when the field gets too crowded - you'll carry me on your shoulders so I could have the best view - the concert on stage and the guy I see when I look down. ♥ :) We'll go to wedding expos and you'll willingly carry my very very heavy bag of flyers and magazines. HAHAHA. We'll watch Drift shows, bull fights, cock fights, and heck we'll go to strip clubs (please take me to a strip club I've always wanted to go to one hahahaha). We'll go to Casinos and gamble. We'll celebrate halloween parties and wear costumes we thought well of. I'll learn how to cook all your favorite dishes. I'll ask your mom to help me out. I'll shop clothes for and with you. We'll drink and get drunk together. We'll play video games and you'll be surprised when I beat you at some. We'll make random deals and bets. We'll sleep all day if that's what you feel like doing. We'll watch tons and tons and tons of movies together. I want someone who has the same taste in music as I do. Coz could you just imagine being in a car with someone and then he turns up the radio and you're all quiet and trying to enjoy the ride because hey, that's really not your jam. HAHAHAHA. Could you imagine living with someone who plays a song and you just can't enjoy that tune with him? I just can't imagine. I wanna be with someone who has good taste in films. Could you imagine watching a movie with someone and then he'd just fall asleep at some point? This is why I love watching movies in cinemas alone. The only reason why I want to watch movies with other people because I want to have someone I can discuss it with afterwards. Share thoughts about it and stuff. Or maybe if the movie was so awesome - we'd go out of the cinema and head out to dinner and still just be at awe with what we've just watched - we'd both be speechless. I wanna be with someone who doesn't mind waiting in a long line with me. I wanna be with someone who understands my sarcasm. I wanna be with someone who understands me when I'm being weird and dreamy about the future. I wanna be with someone who'll be honest with me if my idea's a complete flop or if it's really good. I wanna be with someone who'd always be frank with me. Like if I look ugly that day - tell me. If my dress doesn't look good with the shoes I'm wearing - tell me. If you've got no idea and I look just fine with you - tell me. Hahaha. I wanna be with someone who I can run to for comfort when things go wrong. I wanna be with someone who I can cry on and it doesn't matter if you don't talk - just hold me tight and hold me close. That's enough. I wanna be with someone who understands my hunger for new things. Someone who understands my addiction to the internet and how it will forever amaze me. Someone who understands my peculiarity and how my thoughts can be from utterly stupid to amazingly bizarre. I want someone who can be my BFFF. Someone who I can go to a batting range, a shooting range, an archery range? Hahaha. I'm really into a lot of guy stuff. At the same time I'll always be the most hopeless romantic girl you can ever meet. You'll get random surprises for random reasons. And you don't necessarily need to reciprocate any of those surprises I do for you - you just need to appreciate them ... and appreciate me. These all come naturally - really. I'll be the best thing that'll ever happen to you. I'll always always look my best for you (but sorry I really don't do makeup hahaha). I'll always work on my body so that you'd never have a reason to look at someone else :p HAHAHA. Dress nice, smell great, & look beautiful - and all of me is all for you. ;) I want someone who I can be completely transparent with - and him with me too. I want someone who doesn't mind taking selfies with me. Hahahahaha - seriously speaking :p I want someone who'll be comfortable around a camera - around a photographer. I'll take your photos - quite a lot of times. I'll take photos of us and the adventures we'll submerge ourselves in together. I want someone who will always be interested in me and what I think and what I feel. I want someone who will always be curious about me too. I want someone - who constantly wants me.

I want a relationship with enough faith, loyalty, trust, compassion, understanding, spontaneity, and space - the right amount of it. Space enough for us to continue to grow as individuals - and also as two people together.

I want someone who believes in a higher being. I want someone who believes in God. I want someone who is God-fearing. I want a man who speaks of God in a way so profound - he himself becomes the greatest blessing - not just to me - but also to others around him. It doesn't matter if we've got different religions - really. I want to be with a man of God. If not yet - or not yet right now - I want someone who doesn't mind praying with me. I want someone I can talk about God with and really have his heart into it. I want to be with someone wherein our love (now we're talking about love) will be grounded in God. ♥ :)

This is gonna be a pretty long chapter of my life. This chapter wherein I'm still creating a better version of myself - for God and the man he's prepared/preparing for me. ♥

Till my next love post.

Ciao x :)

PS, I'll share with you this quote from a book I've been reading since college hahaha (Daily Grace for Teens)

"It is not wrong to want more, or better. But it is best to let God decide what that more or better should be. He has a reason for everything He does. He also knows what you are best suited for because He made you."

:)

Something Random: Selfie ♥

I have around 300 selfies in my laptop. And now that I've yay hooray finally got a new phone - damn more selfies it is. Or not. And I am honestly embarassed about it. I take selfies whenever I wanna check if I still am as pretty as I am. What. Hahahahaha. This is me being honest. And this is me being blunt.

I actually posted this photo on Instagram. But then deleted it in less than a minute.

I don't really need to gain lots of likes to know how good I look or whatsoever. I just then realized that this too is what my blog is for. This is where I post the stuff I think twice or more about posting onto other social networking sites.

A girl's beauty isn't really ever defined by the number of likes your profile picture has got. Summer photos? Damn people like your photo coz you're in a bikini, bitch. Not because you hot all in all. Oops. 

I really hate it when a girl posts a photo of herself and says they're fat and that they're ugly etcetera etcetera. Dude if you don't find your photo attractive - please get it the fuck off the web.

I on the other hand say I'm fat - on MY terms. Because this is NOT the body that I want. But I'm not fat. I'll be honest - if I wore a bikini right now, I'd most definitely be hot. Heck even may be uotter than the girl you're with right now. Hashtag just sayin'. Lol. Hahaha just watched Justin Timberlake's video on hashtags.

Anyway.

My thoughts seem so jumbled up and all. But it's a random thought. And a random fact about myself.

And another fact about me - I aint really fond of posting bikini photos. I mean - I've got nothing against those girls that do. It's just that for me - it seems like free porn. Hahahahahahahaha. No offense, please. I just think that it's too much of a giveaway. To like - hundreds of people. But I DO want to post a photo of myself in a bikini too but there's this huger part of me that doesn't want to either. Hahahaha. It's like wearing underwear in public - just dries easier aaand has a different material. Hahahaha

Kkk. Time to watch a movie before I sleep now.

Kbye.

x

Assessing Thyself ♥

Got to read an article from Thought Catalog. God I'm so sleepy I'll just edit this tomorrow. Goodnight.

1. What is one thing you will never do again?

- I must say I'm finding it hard to answer this one since I really can't tell if I CAN never do it again.

2. Would you rather be twice as smart or twice as happy?

- Both? But I'd go with twice as happy. Being too smart messes things up.

3. What happened the last time you cried?

- I blogged about it. Hahahaha.

4. What happened the time in your life when you were the most nervous to do something?

- I gained something new! Which is really good. A level up on my self-worth I guess. 

5. What would your parents be surprised to learn about you?

- Maybe I should keep that to myself so it'd be safe if ever they come across my blog. HAHAHA

6. What’s your worst habit?

- I still bite my nails. And uhh. Biting my lips? Idk what's considered my "worst habit" since I'm really fine with my habits. Hahahahaha.

7. What superpower would you have for one day?

- OMG TELEPORTATION PLEASE. PLUS whatever power that is that stops time or something. But that'd make me cheat that one day thing. But really. I would love to teleport to so many places. I'd travel the wooooorld AGHHHHHHHH

8. What fictional character do you have the biggest crush on?

- Batman I guess.

9. Where would you live if you could live anywhere in the world?

- Anywhere with you :"> (HAHAHAHAHAHA.) Seriously though - I'd probably live ... wherever it is my loved ones are. I mean - I do wanna live someplace else. But I highly doubt I'd be happy if it means having to miss so many people. But if I could someday settle down in a place not called the Philippines - I'd very much like to live in Australia. Idk why - probably because of the free animals. Hahahaha. But really really.

10. What is your most bizarre pet peeve?

- Invasion of my personal space. I swear that my personal space bubble is easily EASILY irritated. I think my "too close" is okay or normal for other people. But believe me. My personal space - is MY personal space. Only a selected few are welcome to cross it.

11. Who knows you the best?

- My mom. And yeah of course - God.

12. What after school activities did you do in high school?

- Omg. Hang out at McDonald's. Still with the people I've been with since 745 in the morning. And I never get tired of them. Hahahahahahaha

13. What “most likely to” superlative would you be most honored to receive?

- "Most Likely to Inspire People Around Her" HAHAHAHAHA no, really. I'd always choose to be an inspiration rather than just someone people know something about. I hope I'm able to live a life that's according to God's will - and truly be an inspiration to a whole lot of other people ... that they too be able to live their lives in the most positive and hopeful way. :)

14. What’s the last book you really loved?

- I really loved The Fault in Our Stars though upto now I'm not yet done with it. I found myself spazzing every now and then. Before that one though - I never read a book so patiently through my iPod touch - through a PDF fucking file - like that of That Boy. So many books I'd love to mention but that's really not what was asked for so. Yeah. Hahahaha.

OH NOW I KNOWWWWW - I'M CURRENTLY reading I Kissed Dating Goodbye. And I'm loving every piece of it. <3 :)

15. What was the greatest television show of all time?

- Friends. Hey Arnold. (If we'll talk about ALL TIME)

16. What’s been your favorite age so far?

- 21. This age. I experienced so much. Learned so much. And I believe that it was this year that I did not just grow older. I'd like to believe that in some ways - I did gain wisdom as well. Because I now understand a lot more things clearly. I appreciate 2013 so much.

17. If you could go back in time, what is one piece of advice you would give your younger self?

- Oh we did this one before in our last retreat!! Fuck, that letter still makes me cry. HAHAHAHAHA. Well.

Younger Sarah, all I can say is - BE STRONG! I'm pretty confident enough to say that you CAN and you WILL get through anything. I know that you can manage whatever it is that comes your way. So all I really wanna tell you is - BE STRONG. And and - hold onto God. :) I'm telling you - this Man won't ever let you down. Okay? I love you!!!

18. What one thing would you be most disappointed if you never got to experience it?

- Seeing the world through my eyes. I love the way I see certain things. I'd be more than disappointed if I never got to have this gift of sight. I love my eyes so much. I'd like to elaborate on this one - but I guess some of you would already understand what I'm trying to say. HAHAHA

19. Apologize or ask permission?

- Depends, really. But I HIGHLY prefer asking for permission. Whatever it is. Ask permission. Apologizing for something you've already foreseen just sounds so bs to me.

20. Unlimited love or money?

- Let's be practical here. I believe in love. Without a doubt I do. But really - no man can ever live on "love" alone. If we'd be basing it on feelings though - I'd choose money. Love is a choice, man. Not just a feeling. That feeling - with love - is a rollercoastery piece of shit. You should always CHOOSE to love. Okay it's really hard to explain so maybe next time I'll try to explain it further.

21. If you knew you would die in one week, what would you do?

- Enjoy every waking moment of my life. But I'd set aside one day wherein I'd already arrange everything - I have to make sure that the people I'll be leaving behind will be happy even though I'm already gone. I'll make sure they'll cry tears of joy in my funeral. ;)

22. What’s your most listened to song?

- Currently - Fine By Me by Andy Grammer.

23. Beach vacation or European vacation?

- Both would be incredible. But if it's to relax and unwind - I'd prefer the beach vacation. I'd lay in a bed. In a room. And just enjoy the sound of the waves.

24. If you could have been a child prodigy what would you have wanted to be skilled at?

- A computer/techie genius. I'd invent something that would make me earn more than a lifetime of moolah even my kids and grandkids would benefit from it.

25. What’s the first thing you would do if you won the lottery?

- Jump for joy, homie!! And then - seriously invest half of it. And uhh - half of the half - I'd buy everything I want like food and clothes aaaand the rest - for my parents. Woot woot.

26. What celebrity would you trade lives with?

- Right now - I would love to be married to Aaron Paul. Pretty please.

27. If you were a performing artist, what would you title your first album?

- The Runaway Potato. HAHAHAHAHAHA

28. What story do your friends still give you crap about?

- I'm not quite sure.

29. If earth could only have one condiment for the rest of time, what would you pick to keep around?

- Ketchup. Or pepper. (Are those condiments? HAHAHA)

30. What is the ideal number of people to have over on a Friday night?

- 3 (my college loves), 4 (my clingy club), 1 (a special someone? HAHAHA), 1 (my dear cousin but her coming over is not really something possible HAHAHA), 18 (my Tartine) or maybe not having anyone at all over is fine with me too. I could spend the night with my laptop. Yum. HAHAHAHA

31. What was the worst age you’ve been so far?

- Hmm. I've got no regrets really. And I guess everything I've been through helped me become whoever I am today so - none I guess.

32. What is your weirdest dealbreaker?

- Well - I don't really think I can be your girlfriend if you don't see me being the girl you'd be waiting for at the altar. I'm not saying that I want a guy to instantly know if he wants to marry me or what. What I'm saying is - I'm not open for trial and error. I'm not for "testing". We can be friends for a really long time. But only take me and claim me as your girlfriend when you're sure enough you don't want and WON'T want anyone else but me.

33. What fictional character reminds you most of yourself?

- This is so hard. I'll get back on you later.

34. Do you believe in karma?

- I guess so. I believe that what comes around goes around. There's good karma, and there's bad karma. Nonetheless - eventually we'll all get what we deserve. Maybe not yet - maybe not at the moment - but eventually.

35. What was your favorite TV show as a kid?

- Everything in Nickelodeonnnnnnn and Disneyyyy. AGGHHHH. Now not much is good on tv. Huhu.

36. What is the weirdest thing you find attractive in a person?

- Well - when a guy's really weird and geeky.

37. What Jeopardy! category would you clear, no problem?

- Stupid Answers maybe. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAshetbobo

38. What is something you’re superstitious about?

- Nothing really. 

39. What is the scariest experience you have ever had?

- Falling in love. (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAseriouslytho)

40. Who is a non-politician you wish would run for office?

- Can't really think of anyone right now ._.

41. What cheesy song do you have memorized?

- A LOT. Um um.

42. What one dead person would you most like to have dinner with, if it were possible?

- First person that came to mind was my grandfather from my dad's side. I never got to meet him. I wanna get to know him. Coz maybe if I got to know him - there are a lot of things I'll find easier to understand.

But I'd really wanna meet Einstein and Steve Jobs. Omg so many dead people to revive. Hmm.

43. Do you think it’s important to stay up to date with the news?

- No matter how much I hate watching the news - I'd like to believe that YES it is very important.

44. What is the best present you’ve ever received?

- Probably my laptop. Hahahaha. And serious enough - I really love the book I Kissed Dating Goodbye. Nix gave it to me randomly. Though I aint done with it yet - I'm really loving every bit of it. Joshua Harris, you da bomb. HAHAHA

45. Would you give up one of your fingers if it meant you’d have free wifi wherever you go, for the rest of your life?

- That's so tempting, really. But um no. I'd like to keep ten fingers please.

46. What’s the first thing you’d do if you were the opposite sex for one day?

- Take him to an amusement park. 

47. If someone told you you could give one person a present and your budget was unlimited–what present would you get and for whom?

- I'd get my mom her dream house. With all her dream stuff in it. With a lovely garden in front plus a neat looking backyard. (LOL just thinking about it makes me tear up HAHAHA)

48. What is the nicest thing someone could say about you?

- That I'm genuine and he/she likes me for who I am. Flaws and all. ;) (So thankful to have such people who DO love me for me.)

49. Giant house in a subdivision or tiny house somewhere with a view?

- Tiny house somewhere with a view. 

50. What is the weirdest quirk your family has?

- We'll treat you as family no matter how much we don't like you - just because we love the person who loves you. We'll learn to love you too. Is that even a quirk. Hahahahahaha