Why Workout Doesn't Workout For Me ♥

So here are my post workout selfies.

As you can see, this is me after workout. I mean - I probably have this exuberating amount of self-love and confidence wherein I have this love hate relationship with my body. I'm happy with it and then I'm not. Yup. But I'm determined enough to get the actual body I've been dreaming of so I think I'll keep doing my Project Hotstuff till I get there. Yay.

I'm actually a day late coz I was supposed to start yesterday but yesterday was pretty busy and postponing this project for next month would just make me another lazy ass human being.

My mom told me to get my life together by actually planning my days ahead (which is really not my thing but I think I should really start doing that already so everyday will be productive).

Say hi to my son. Yeah no I'm obviously kidding. He's my nephew. His dad went out for a while to buy some junk food.

That's the move I found so hard to pull off. I just had to take a photo. Sorry.

It's funny how it's my first day and I'm honestly already checking for improvements (I might be growing some pandesals already yaknow. HAHAHAHAHA)

Okay. Time for late lunch and then as bad as my eyes hurt - gotta get back to work. Post processing continues. Yaynot.

Ciao x

Project Hotstuff ♥

Yeah not really. But here's to finalizing what I really wanna do with my body. Here's the thing with me and my body - what's stopping me to actually work out and make myself look better are those times wherein I know I'm already happy with my shape. But then again, I'm so inconsistent. I didn't even work for the body I have right now. And people say I'm already so thin and all but there are still those times wherein I want a body that's better than this. And I'm SURE I can have a better one if I actually work hard on it enough to a point wherein maintaining THAT body goal is nothing but a piece of cake.

I measure my fats by my "love handles". When I can no longer feel my hip bones, that's the indication I'm getting fat.

Those are love handles and nope this aint my body and the photo aint mine.

I don't weigh myself regularly and when I know I'll just be home the whole week - I eat much more than a pig does. And I slack off like shit. Right now, my love handles are beginning to grow and I'm not happy with my tummy anymore. I want it to STAY flat - no matter how much I eat.

I was able to achieve that before - wherein you're already used to eating just this amount of food and your intestines/stomach gets used to it that they shrink and you'll easily feel bloated and tada - you're able to maintain that size.

I wanna have more shape - I really want that hourglass shape and I want my butts to be bigger coz I believe I lack butt fats :(

Girls always tell me that I'm gifted with my boobs but believe me when I tell you I DON'T LIKE HAVING BIG BOOBIES. :( I want small flat ones. The one wherein I could wear tops wherein I won't worry about my boobs showing off. Don't people know that it's a dilemma for a conservative girl like me to have boobs like these? Like, I wanna wear this and that but now - my boobs decide to wanna show some cleavage and shit so no - I can't wear it.

Sorry but that's just how I am with my body -_-

ANYWAYS. As I've said, I want a flat tummy, and hourglass shape, and bigger butts. Here are those workouts I'll be following :D

For my flat butt,

For my hourglass figure,

I'll be following this :)

And this video

And for my flat tummy,

I'll be following this :)

I'm dead serious about this goal of mine. It's a part of creating a better version of myself. YAY! Hahaha. Since I can't really control the food I eat - I should really start being organized and responsible enough to regularly exercise and live a fit and healthy lifestyle. I can't lessen my rice, sweets, and all my other favorites so I think I should really be (I seriously forgot that term UGH) blank to have the body I want.

At first I was pegging on Ellen Adarna's body for SO LONG - but realized that that was a little bit too much so I'll just keep on working on my body till I'm happy with it.

I'll probably post a before and after photo. Maybe every month I'll take a photo of myself and post them all at the end - when I've finally achieved it. HAHAHAHA. Wish me luck!

Ciao xxx 

Just Moved In ♥

I'm so happy right now because I have just moved back into my room! Was probably a nomad for about a week or so because Mang Dolfo (our carpenter) worked on my room and it had to take days to have the paint dry up because I don't know how to explain why so let's stick to just because.

I've been so busy lately UGH and at the same time I've just been home.

I had a feverish week last week and so far - this week has been good to me. :)

Everytime I sleep though - I've been having really weird dreams and often just fail to do some research and figure out what they mean.

I have time to blog right now because I'm already done with the stuff I have to do and they're uploading nalang so~ YUP. I think I've got free time right now :)

Gosh I've just realized that I'm gonna be much more tamad right now because I have to get down from my bed first before having to go anywhere else .___. Could you imagine that extra effort I have to do everytime I'll need to get up from bed and try to have a productive day??? OMG - this has just occurred to me and I somewhat regret this and at the same time I don't because my room is so dope right now even though the decor and other shit and done yet but it's dope and awesome just because I already have a den and and my bed is up higher and - BASTA. Ang ganda. TEEHEE.

Anyhoo. I'll be posting photos of my room real soon! As soon as I'm done with it. That is. HAHAHA. Probably next week! After the 21st which is a holiday. Why after that? Because Tash and Nix are coming over that day to help me out :D I am so excited!!! :)

But for now. I'll be home and do some work here and on Friday I'll be out with my friends - yay! Movie plus cheap dinner plus a sure good time with them :) And then out on Saturday again for cc.

Krookroo.

K I think that's a good update for now :)

Ciao!! x