My 2014 Lovelife ♥

2014 is a few days away and I don't even know why I'm stoked about it so much. But since this is more of a love blog than a life blog (HAHAHAHAHA) I'll be talking about how I actually plan on managing my love life next year. I wont be managing it at all. I plan on leaving it all to God's hands. I should've - a long time ago. I should've gone with my mom's advices. I should've taken time - more time into considering what my heart desires or what my heart really needs.

2013's leaving and I've no regrets about it. As far as I'm concerned - I just hope and pray for the best for that person I've by far loved the most for a really long time. This blog's too consumed with my thoughts about him, and next year I can't even promise if I wont be mentioning him anymore. But really, I've moved on. Sounds defensive but I need not explain further hahaha.

With regards to matters of my heart - it's a bit heartbroken because there's this human I really like a lot - like a lot a LOT - but since things are just too complicated no matter how perfect it can even seem - I just really have to let him go. It's hard - I swear. But I strongly believe that I'll get by and this'll be easier in time. :) I mean, if God wills it - He'll most definitely help me through it. PUSH!! Hahahaha.

I don't think I'm into dating anyone - anytime soon. And soon means - anytime next year. Hahahaha. Or the year after that. But I really can't say for 2015 - but I'm pretty sure about 2014. 

This time, it's not really just about me running away and just scared of getting hurt again or falling for the wrong guy who'll most probably eventually not be that sure about me in the long run (again) - it's much more than that.

I probably used to say that I'm ready to be in a relationship again - I'm probably not ... ? Because if I were - isn't it I should be like "Come on love, I'm so ready to take you on again." HAHAHAHAHA which - is not even the case right now. I'm more like "Love, you can wait. Right now, I don't really got time for you." HAHAHAHA geez I should've had this way of thinking back in college so I could've focused on my studies more. HAHAHAHA but ohhhhwell. :))

I am a busy bee - and I can't wait to get more busy! I should spend this time being single saving up for my future!! Time is so short UGH. But seriously speaking - I'm like "Projects, come at me. Come to mama. Please." HAHAHAHA yes with a "please" because I DO want more projects. If I don't have enough by March, I seriously am considering employment (but the slightest chance about that HAHAHAHA). If I'd ever get employed - damn I can't be picky but am I even to blame? I don't think I'm gonna settle for a 20k monthly pay. (whoops) NOT unless that's by being a flight attendant - which should probably pay much more (right?:o). Companies can't blame me for demanding a higher pay - they damn should've considered hiring me while I still wanted to be employed so bad. I'm really sorry if I believe that I DESERVE a better pay now if I WOULD be employed. I hate routine - and if I'm gonna sit all day and follow orders from someone I have to try and put up with just because he/she is in a higher rank - the pay should most definitely suit me well. But if I'm getting paid so low to practice patience - man that's such a waste of time because seriously - I can practice patience in many other ways and if it's dealing with other people - freelancers deal with a lot of different people too - jsyk.

I promise to blog about my view on employment and why I'm proud about freelancing some other time.

Back to my lovelife - I used to be love-aholic HAHAHAHA but 2014 I think it's time to be workaholic. Woot woot. It's a year for growth! Spiritually, mentally, and physically! So so so many plans for 2014. And I really believe things will be turning out better next year. :)

But yeah. Nothing else romantic happening next year besides a much sweeter and stronger relationship with God.♥

Time for late breakfast!

Ciao♥ :)